so josh is coming for a visit and i can't wait. the last time we seen eachother was like 6 months ago. and man i can't wait to mess around with him. he's got one of those nice nice jock bods. mm damn i'm just crazy about it. the only prob is danny. he's getting emotional still about this whole thing and i feel bad just dissing him these past few days because i do really like him it's just too heavy to try and make me bust out of the closet just because he's comfortable doing it doesn't mean i am. i prefer the only people knowing are the ones i mess with. it all comes down to danny saying i'm ashamed and maybe i am. the only reason i am is because i'm not sure yet. i still like girls. i only like certain guys. and i don't know. it's fucking highschool. i'll figure all this shit out in college. maybe. so josh is coming and he gets to crash here for two weeks. niiiiiiiiiiiiiice. only thing that has really sucked about today is my sister having all of her dumbass little friends over and hearing a multitude of high pitched screams over the past 5 hours. i need ear muffs.