i still don't know what i want . the other day i was so sure that i couldn't have a relationship with him at all . today i miss him a lot and i'm feeling very fond of him . and i keep thinking, its fucking stupid of me to leave such a great guy who really cares about me and i can be 100% sure isn't going to hurt me . seriously, why would i do that ? its not even because i want to be single . i haate being single ! i get so lonely . i am seeing him on monday, to sort things out . i am hoping that when i see him i'll know what i want . sdfjkldfsjl