i feel like life is offering me all these amazing oppurtunities and i am wasting them. i keep fucking it up. my teeth hurt and my belly hurts and it was all for nothing...

i look the best that i have ever andprobably ever will look in my life. i honestly believe i could make something of myself

but i can't seem to bring myself to get out of this stupid fucking town

and this stupid fucking comfort zone i have buried myself deep deep deep inside

and i say i am staying for him, and i am, because i honestly don't think i could leave him

but if i wasn't.... would there just be another reason?

i hope i don't regret this.

oh man.

i already do :(

and i hope i don't accidentally kill myself in the process of fucking up my life hah. this is bad