well where do i start im upset and i feel slutty Everyone who can help plzz help i like 2 boys that both like me back and they will kill eachother for me.. i mean they are both nothing special but w.e i like them and i dont know who to choose 1st guy: Anthony 18 year old male. Acts like a little kid. hold my hand and calls me beautiful. doesnt want anything sexual.known him for 2 weeks and hasnt asked me out yet hasnt kissed me but loves me. not shy super cool. Non-virgin 2nd guy: Turner 14 year old male. Super great skater. Makes out with me in theater and acts like he wants nothing to do with me outside of the movies. loves me at school. wants to ask me out has a very sexual needs. super cute and just funny. Virgin. so yeah i know who i SHOULD choose but i dont know if i dont want to. I like them both Why do i always catch the downfalls? oh well better luck next time i guess.. im only 14. i have a full life to live♥

Wow i havent been on here in like forever updates: Ive been dumped by the only guy that i actually was in love with for one of my best friends.... My parents have lost total and uder trust in me cause ive been caught smoking *** and ciggs.. My bestfriends mom read her diary and told my mom about every bad things i did with guys and parties UGH Ive lost evrything worth living for so uhm im Lonly,Angry,Sad,Letdown, wow I done with evrything i feel emo :) lol thats a bad thing i think ♥

Oh man i havent been on here in like more than a month.... lots of things to update on...... Ok Im still going out with Trevor its been more than a month so far... i hope it will last a long freakin time... Im off school today cause im "sick" and its monday :) hah im cool like that... I actually can play the guitar now im very proud...ok heres a run down on evrything thats new. from most exciting to least. 1. I lost my virginity lol 2. Im not prude 3. Im bad 4. I love Alcohol 5. I hate alot of ppl 6. I hate teachers 7. I have detention more than I go to school 8. Im addicted to ciggertetts 9. Im severly blonde 10. I hate emo kids except for Kelly :) yha so a pretty exciting month :) lol wat the fuck ever Shannon

Trevor i fucking love u baby <3 9-15 My b.day is in 27 mins :)

Skitophranic I hate u but i love u, u mean nothing but ur my everything. i wnat to kill u but i want to hold ur hand. i wanna drink away all this pain and confusion Ur just the guy im dying for and just the guy im trying for i love u but i always find myself fucking up so badly, Go die somewhere all alone by urself in the dark or in the cold....die alone all by urself alone.... U used me and didnt even get what u wanted. im sorry but im not that kinda girl. and if u say ur sorry...ill take ur hand and we can run away far away so far away from home so far alone all by ourselves. Im happy that ur gone but i cry myself to sleep. and i cant belive i wasted my time calling u mine...die u little bitch...i love u more than words can say u help this pain come and stay... dont stay awat please comeback to me.... I miss u babe dont play with me I Love you.............

Im not sure if u meant it to be this way But in the end it doesnt matter Cause Im lost inside this place that i thought i called my home. And im so confused, so aggrivated All this wondering can do u know good Cause in the end you cant help but be fucked over And even though im screaming ur name Its like Im whipering in the distance And im biting on my lip to try to understand I cant help but think this ur all that ive got to hold on to Im lozing my grip and falling quicker than i ever thought id fall And im trying to hold on to you cause ur all that ive got.... I havent known u all that long but id do anything to keep u by my side It makes me jealous when i think of another gurl with u and make makes me tear all up inside. So ill give u my last shot and make it worth my while. Cause its worth it in the end just to make u smile. its my song that i made up all by myself:) Comment me if u like it or understand Shannon

i skipped school today but i get to talk to garrett yessss lol im bored and my new aim s.n is chokeonevrydream sounds somewhat perverted but its not lol look wat i can doo 8=======D lol

yey i met a hot guy that likes me and i like him? wat r theodds of that? lol SHannon

Just got home from school and i had the best day ever! all the kids that were popular last year are scummies now!!!!!!!! lmfao i love it and there are hawt boys!!! yesss maybe ill hook up with someone......but i like someone in Walenpaupack but hes taken by idk who... doesnt it suck when u cant have the one u want ¢¾¢¾¢¾ but i have new friends this year pretty darn sweet.... I heart you (u know who u are)

first day of highschool tomorow YEY!!! I am very annoyed with everyone except Joce....hmm nothing to say we had an away game today at oylaphant shitty turf woah lots of hotties!! like #85 15 & 29!!!! id do em all lol Joce says Hi......Brenna wont do my laundry and i dont know how to do laundry :'(

im cold very very very cold waiting for josh to call and yea boring day tripped over myself lol played my electric guitar listened to blink182 and got on here FUN!! man im so fucking bored oh well

maeghans here were chillin and havin "fun" lol ill update later bored for now

ya i feel really shitty i like someone and he have a girlfriend but she treats him like shit and he doenst relize it. and i feel really bad cause i know about some things shes done with other guys while they were going out cause she was supposedly "drunk" ya well fuck her and i care about this guy alot and there is nothing special about him but hey u cant help who u like.........and i just happen to like him but i shouldnt wait but i am w.t.f.e...i should get over him cause i know hell end up hurting me the longer i wait and there are plenty of other guys out there right? i cant help it i just cant im trying and it doenst help i have never been this way about a guy...woah i should shut up already :'( someone stop the pain.......please

ok we just went to my brigde and pissed on it for idk fun and then we desicded to moon ppl on the highway i did but maeghan didnt and we decided to throw rocks at cars and hide behind the guard rail lmfao and maeghan threw this big mother fucken ass rock at some nice car and he stopped on his breaks and turned around....maeghan jumped her fat ass over the guard rail started runnin down the street yellin RUN SHANNON RUN!!!! and of coarse me bieng me i sat there and got hit in the head with a big fucken rock.....im hurtin lmfao great times but my head hurts stupid rock

maeghans here were chillin and havin "fun" lol ill update later bored for now

hey all emily got a hold of brennas diary and changed it all dont listen..... she thinks shes got us.....oh well it didnt...we dont really care emily :-* u must really love us to take that much time on her diary hmmoh well be obsessed if u want to after all its ur life bye Shannon

just got home from joels house with Karley and Joce i had a blast and i love Joel more than the world means to me so joel please dont go back out with nora i hate her please please dont i promise u i do care alot more than u will ever know or understand dont stand me up i fucking love u baby

wow im bored and my day is so fucking boring its unbelivable....all my family wont shut up and its pissing me off. hmm nothing to say....u know what i should make a list of hot boys haha that would be funny but ill do it later cause im to bored to do it now...well w.e

ok all u preppy little fuckin girls out there stop prancing around and acting all rocker/punk i am getting really fucking annoyed and so are the rest of us real people stick to ur own style and music when ur all little fucking posers.... and people who really do like our music and syle like it but dont dress a part u arent stick to ur preppy ass style cause i am getting really fucked off so stop copying everything and stick to ur little rap shit my fucking god ALL U PREPPY LITTLE BITCHES STOP WEARING STUFF U CANT HANDEL U CANT JUST DRESS THE PART U HAVE TO ACT THE PART! SO JUST FUCKING STOP....BEFORE I HELP U STOP! :) JUST KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF

I’ve given up, I’m giving up slowly, I’m blending in so You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate This one last call that You mentioned is my one last shot at redemption because I know to live you must give your life away And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I gotta get outta here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I’m giving up I’m doing this alone now Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there And this life sentence that I’m serving I admit that I’m every bit deserving But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I gotta get outta here Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake I gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I am a hostage to my own humanity Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I’ve gotta get outta here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I’ve gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I fought You for so long I should have let You in Oh how we regret those things we do And all I was trying to do was save my own skin But so were You So were You