Ugh. I need a piece of glass to put my head through. I need an axe and a forest to release tense anger and frustration on. *sigh* but if I only had these things. I suppose CS will do. Kill until I am too tired to care anymore. I hate having bad thoughts made true. Am I doomed to constant failure? To have everything I work for fall from under me every time something "good" happens? WTF. Why should I bother then. Maybe I'll just tell everyone I settle for less than I want now, be sad so others are happy. That's a good thing right? Maybe I should stop trusting everyone completely. My "naivety" is definitely getting the better of me. Pah, thinking someone could hold a promise...what was I thinking. The world doesn't do that anymore, not for a price. I guess I'm the only one that cares enough to do things selflessly. The only one that actually doesn't have ulterior motives, that will help without being asked.