im pretyt sure ive been silently waiting for someone to be my safety net since october im ready to b saved... ...and wait hummm that never comes along ...and when i think it does i get excited and forget that ppl are fucks and arnt how they say or act well ive tried it all: looking waiting pretending i dont care... aler-ego (i.e tyna in this case) thats why u have to wait for someone who is actually genuwine and isnt gonna look at you for sex or just for a girl getting on with other things they actually want you you just want a boy, because if you actually wanted a rrealtionship you would try and focus in on one person and not go out looking for someone else to hook up with. you first need to decide what you want and be set on what you want before you consider the options you have or are interested in ...and secondly, we live in palm desert and were 17...ur life is not over, you have a long time to look for that one guy and sometimes...its not found in palm desert lol ur gonna run into a lot of fuck heads along the way, but ur gonna have to to find the right one me again... ok well i dont even want "that guy"... i just want someone to be there, some one who understands, someone who wants to chill an dhave fun but b cute and sweet, i want someone who will want to see me everyday even tho i cant, i want someone who knows when to hold back adn when not to , i want someone who wants me back... decisions decisions....