three days before a year and im going crazy. this is the second time in a row shes done this shit. and its fucked up cuz its been the ONLY tweo times she did it .. but in a row... n its only cuz shes with fuckin shannon and shannon thinks shes grown n shyt. i cant get a hold of her and i dont know where she is... once again... i tell her to tell me the truth, and nothinbg else and dont lie... but i got a feeling that she is... although i cant prove its just a feeling i get... but i get this feeling offen but it was never once right... or was it? sumtimes i just KNOW shes lying... but thenagain i dont... so it comes down to the simple fact that i have no PROOF... n oh god is that the way to get out of shit... anybody that deals with cops knows exactly wat i mean... the fact that u could have every reason in the world to kill a man... and "coincidentally" he dies the next morning and everyone in the town knows u did the shit... but since theres no proof... the nigga walks... its bullshit but i guess its my karma... u dont know how many times ive used that game as my get a way plan.. n now since im so used to doing it... i think everyone else is doing it to me... i could be wrong.. but then again.. i could be right.... fuckin lies that people tell are so fucked up if they know how to do it... and im definantly not excluding myself cuz i do the shit more than the next person... i guess i deserve it but then again damn... the selfish part of me really wants to know the truth even if its being told to me.. i dont hear it anymore.. i automatically think its a lie that i have no proof against... i want for me to get away with everything and not let a single person pull sum shit like that to me cuz that is straight up deception... in the highest form... im a slick fucked up person... and even me admitting this is kind of slick.. but then again it isnt... n its very hard to understand where im coming from... but this is the best examples can put into words... right now she could be fuckin another nigga... n the only reason i think that is cuz i did it too... n i kno its gonna come back to haunt me... so thats that i guess... basically, what it all comes down to... is that the truth is an excuse.... and the ironic part is that the truth is... we will never know.... honesty is unheard of now a days... but the truth is... we all must deceive one another to make it higher than our neighbor... play the game right and go by its rules... and not the rules of what you were 'told'... because people telling the rules... is the easiest way to cheat... to bend the rules in their favor and once again.... the truth remains that u will never know if they are lying... wait no... not lying.. but 'not telling u eveything'... and honestly... i dont want this truth game to end... because im a master at the craft... but it has now become my downfall... with every good... there will always be an evil so what will i do now?