so yea i had a weird dream the other night.. i dont kno if it was so weird.. it was about me goin to this guys house who is my friend. then we ended up kissing and started goin out k.. and we was layin in the back of the car and i was leaning back on him and he had his arms around me and the weird thing is.. it felt so right.. you know, and i don't know about that... i mean me and him goof off alot, but to go to that extent.? isn't it weird when your mind tells you things in your dreams about how you feel or should feel about someone? i don't know if i should just ignore it or do somehtign about it, tell someone to tell me what to do?? i'm so confused! after that dream when i see him now... i don't know what to think. Am i nutz?!?! maybe i'm just lonely and need someone.. and he's the only one there for me(guy wise) besides Adam but he lives in Iowa. i feel like a lost kid tryin to find my mom at the mall. it's crazy! Well on another note, i finaly got my internet running at home again, but it kicks me off eery 10 minutes somehting about LA Shell and system shut down.. if u know what that is tell me PLEASE?!?! i'm sitting here in personal typing and i'm done with the microtype.. it's too easy. so the rest of the year i have nothign to do! but get yelled at for doing just that!! have u eer noticed the kind of guys you always go for? well i found it out... i always go for the guy with a troubled mind, someone who is desperate for sttention and being in love! someone who pretends to know what they want, but whne they get it they need more! so that's why i never have anyone! i've solved all my problems! not near.. my mind is always soo scattered, i never make sense when i try to explain my feelings to someone else! i just did my clinicals for nurse aid class i am in, we went to the old folks home... you got to love them! it was tiring tho, i don't know how NA's do it though! i think i want to go into OT or PT... still in health. wow, i always have alot/ too much on my brain! i write alot in here.. and no one reads it, which is alright i guess. cuz it's mostely all about my life, and they don't kno me except for 2 ppl on here! who now know too much hah. but i'm starting to feel a little too crazy in the mind so i have to go.