So it's been a while since i've actually got to see him. He asked me out monday night.. then when i took him home i hadn't seen him since. I'm worried, really... i mean i don't feel he wants this yet. I keep making sure.. he keeps sayin he does just it's been bad timing.. I just got off the phone with him. I had nothing to do today either did he but somehow i didn't get to see him.. and i talked about that, and it's driving me insane. i don't want to be one of those girlfriends that HAVE to see you.. but it's been a week! feels like he doesn't want to see me.. So when we hang up i'm lying on my bed.. and i start to cry.. why?! i mean i understand everything.. just it seems he doesn't want me there.. maybe i'm just thinkin too much, i need to stop! i can't figure out how he is feeling or thinking.. he tells me but i feel there is something.. hidden.. i don't know what to do.. i've brought it up alot! i mean he had a couple hours of doing nothing today.. that he coulda called me back like he said so i coulda came over.. but i had to call him at 830 and ask him if he even wants me over.. and he said he had been sittin around bored! what would u do? All i can do is be sad about it.. maybe he needs some time to adjust.. i don't kno. I just want to make sure he is serious about me.. cuz he says he is.. about us and all or he wouldn't have asked. I'm so confused.. not really but stressed. I need to stop stressing! And just let it be how it is. Just be happy. i just needed to get this all out it's been eating at me for the last couple days! still is! But i'm goin into town tonihgt to stay with my sis, and he said he will call.. he's been sayin that alot but things just keep coming up.. i'm gonna freak! cuz i'm turning into this bitch very slowly to him.. i hate it! i dont want to be like this... I think i just miss him and need reassurance.. yeah. i do! i'm out Sara