So basically I'm afraid of every guy in the world now. Like they all must be disgusting and horrible and perverted. I can't help thinking it. The only guy I can trust is Tristan. To be honest, I don't know when I'll ever be able to do anything physical with him. I almost did today but when I saw his... um... bits lol I was disgusted. There's nothing wrong with him, I've always thought of him as perfect but after what happened to me I see things differently. I need to tell my mom. I need to do something about this. He fucked up my emotions and my thoughts so now I'm going to fuck up his life and talk to the cops. After I talk to my mom. I think... maybe I won't tell either one.