ok.. im doing it agen.. .even tho theres nothing to over react to... im doing it agen.. i hate myself for it.. but yeah.. it was kinda making feel a bit crappy a while ago when i was talking to meaghan... cause i was asking her if she likes me for my looks or for my personality, and well she said "personality." so i was just joking when i said "oh so yer calling me ugly?" but she just said "well..." and that kind of made me wonder.. am i not good lookin? but im sure its nothing to worry bout, but i just cant get over it. and i hate myself for the way i act sometimes.. its what makes ppl take second thauhgts bout me.. i hate that part bout me.. it rely sucks!! i just hope i can make it stop... its rely ticking me off... cause i know there's nothing to be worried bout... but wel yeah.. she said she'll finish the "well.." thing after she gets back from work tonite.. i just hope she doesnt say im ugly.. but what ever she says.. i still lov her, Matt