God I hate myself!

Feeling: helpless
Okay today...BAD! I will never do anything that I did today...ever again. I just hurt my best friend in the whole world, I shouldnt have done that. I didnt know I hurt her until just now...but still. She means the world to me, I would never hurt her on purpose..but I guess I did. I cant do that to her, she needs me. What kinda person am I? I should be better...GOSH I am stupid.. Right now I'm just sitting here letting the tears drop down my face, while I talk to my friends. Trying to pretend like this isnt happening to me and my best friend. My eyes are burning...cant hardly concentrate...oh well. That doenst matter right now, she matters! okay.........well I'll just sum up my day real quick so I dont bore you to death! Woke up this morning, felt like crap..took a shower, got dressed and headed to school. Krysten picked me up on the way there...so yeah. That was cool. Had a blast in school..NOT..Krysten was making fun of me the whole time..because she was finishing all her lessons because she DIDNT study..and I was..so I was taking longer...yeah she has like 4 lessons left..I have 15..little brat! Oh well. Anyways..got out of there..went to the post office to get the mail..yeah that was f un.NOT! Got back to my house, talked to my momma for a sec..krysten got somethin to eat..and we were off to her house! Tim and Tanner were coming over..thought it was going to be fun..yeah it was at first...they got there...and Tim had a rose for me..it was so sweet...God I love him! Anyway..uhh we had to go back to the post office for krystens mom..yeah that was funny. Tim and Tanner were walking slower than snails and krysten and I were in a hurry..yeah not kewl..so we just left them behind..HAHA. We got back to krytstens house and we all sat on krystens ground in the front yard in the shade...yeah...it was fun. NOT. Krysten just got quiet all of a sudden, and wouldnt talk to anyone but Alyssa..yeah that made me feel GREAAAT let me tell ya! Well Tim and Tanner were ready to leave...so yeah..I went inside to get krysten...and she wouldnt talk to me..so I told her I was leaving...and she just watche me leave...I went outside and hugged TIm..I started crying..wow that was lovely! They gave me a ride home, dropped me off..and left...I went inside and watched a movie w/ my mom...cant remember what its called but we watched it..haha.. Then we went to Wal-Mart later on and Tim met me there...was great, I gave him a letter, and he left...so yeah . We went and made a hair appt. for me..Friday...2:30 heck yes..I'm gettin a body perm..hope it'll loook good..should! Went to sonic, then went to wal-mart..that was fun. Then we went to BK to get their new chicken fries..yeah those are the shizz..I know what my new meal is there..HAHA..yeah Got home...did NOTHING..and now I'm here! WOW! Okay thats it.....I gotta go...to much on my mind! Bye |Tara| ------------------------------------------- I'm really sorry Krysten
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originally im from boston, but right now i live in PA
i was in SC for army training and i lived in MS for a little while so i know how that is haha
haha Mass and vermont are nice, i like them still....army training sucks lol...i met the girl there, but thats not a good thing anymore...but yeah it was okay, it changes your life
hah read the previous entries i have, thats all i write about...um now its the fact that she lied to me about stuff...before, she may be talking to some guy while she is finishing her training in TX
haha dont worry that goes away in time lol...you got plenty of that before you have to settle down, enjoy it
heey don*t worry about it..everyone makes mistakes
[Anonymous]
lol...im a pretty boy, i dont do sports, cars, that kinda stuff more than i have to...um, army, movies, music, really hanging out and doing whatever...idk lol, i read (shh secret) too
haha im just not a sports guy...i was a lifeguard instead...um i listen to punk/emo/rock really just about everything, im learning to be okay with country
my name is Jenn and thaanks for welcoming me and adding me
[Anonymous]
i was just kidding i am sure u are not weird,i did that cause this one girl wrote all these messages saying i hate u so i did the weird things,sorry if i hurt ur feelings
Thank you for the comment. I like your diary too the green and blue is cool.

Amber
hey babe. im not mad at you. im not so sure i ever really was... just ignore that shit ya know. im pretty gay sometimes. so yeah..

looove you.
nice new look. Friends get hurt. If she is a good friend she will be ok and talking to you soon. thanks for the comment. I never had 1 of hey!!!!!. I hope ya feel better soon. later