Oh fucking hell fuck my parents they are fucking cunts!!!!!! They over react for nothing they say they care and shit thats fucking bullshit one minute they are all lovey dovery and the next they are tight ass whores who if speak are cruel and mean and change in a second. My friends say its for my own safety and that i should learn a lesson and i belived them for a sec but if they were in my shoes they'd know how i feel. They are so fucking tight wont let my do jack shit oen day the next dont give a fuck where i am. They are so moody and can change so quickly i hate them! Im not just saying that i might love them aswell but fuck its only coz of the past. They are so ahhh i dont know how to explain this in words. Why are they so fucking moody and they dont take it out on my brothers just on me its always my fault i never help i have an attitude i am rude i never talk to family god damn right i dont talk to you why the fuck would i want to you treat me like shit and you dont care how im feeling. How convinient im crying again. Oh well like the will notice or care. I love but hate the feeling when you cry when you know all your emotion are slowing running down your face but thats not the end of it there is more and more and you know your still going to be fucked when you stop just the feeling at the moment is calming. When your finished you feel so fragile and like not talking and just out of the world i love it! The other bad thing of crying is when your actually really really hurt not physically but mentally and your all alone. i feel like no one is there for me no shoulder to lean on as your tears run down my face. My head bumping with thoughts of anger hatred and sadness. the worst thing is im all alone no one there that cares.