maaaaan, i got this BADASS hat on Saturday. its SO damn COOL! its so cool, i wrote a song about it. i will now subject you to it... My Hat Song (by Ariel) my hat is too sexy for you black n white n grey (hey) my sexy logger's hat sexy logger's hat Canadian eh? (HA!) NO WAY! plaid n black n white n grey ear flaps, so fuzzay (hey) black n soft n so not suede my hat is too sexy for you too sexy for you OH SO SEXY! too much for you dont ash on it ho! i kill you! my hat will too with its sexay fuzzay-ness (hey..) YAY! haha, i cannot write for shit. hmm...since im all "WOO IM A WRITER!" mood right now, i think ill put some other shite o mine up in this biznatch. heres one that sounds like Dr Suess a little... nor Hell nor Heaven is where i lay but somewhere far worse somewhere far away this place is familiar ive been here before seems so unlike other places ive been before the sun never sleeps the moon never sinks the birds never sing only moan and weep w00t! no. heres a REALLY bad one i did yesterday. i was all pissed off cos noone belives me when i say anything. i dont even lie that much to make people not believe me. or do i? i dont think so. its weird. people are weird. it makes no sense. AH! anyway, here... Open your eyes free your mind even for a little while let go of what you know discard the known take a stroll down the unknown who knows what could behold look for something to hold onto find something believable to believe in be human be alone take everything down to the bones Open your eyes even for a short time even once just once in a lifetime open them to see see past the shit past the lies past pain into the truth if only for a little while Open your eyes, look for something more the facts arnt always true theres something more inside me, inside you open your eyes, if only for a while i hate that one. like the idea. hate the words i used. its too repedative and different at the same time. i think in circles. its annoying. whoa, MORE circles...joy...or should i say "cycles" ahahaha! no. not funny. no respect for love no love for the dead no respect for life no love for anything only love of nothing running in circles everythings spinning everythings unclear nothings what it seems night turns to day day turns to night again and again trapped in a cycle a neverending cycle called life my dads up here telling me what my "southern horoscope" is. hes a dumbass. hes standing right next to me saying this bullshit. hes so stupid. GOD! im an supposedly "grits". tahts so nasty. i dont give a shit about what my "southern horoscope" is. its not funny. its dumb as hell. wow. its like 9:30. i started writing this entry over two or three hours ago. hm..thats pretty cool. i got more shit... i lost myself long ago i threw it all away thought it was just a game i thought that it didnt matter as long as we have fun i thought that was the point i thought wrong that one is REALLY short compaired to some other ones i got. and...theres more...actually only one more i think...yes. only one left... my eyes are falling from their place they are streaming from my face in an endless river of tears sorrow is all i see pain will only be a memory abandoned cold alone im left with nothing my thoughts haunt me in the dark for the last time sitting on the floor tranquil seas of sorrow, turn into raging rapids of angony as i pierce my heart, all i can think of is you all i taste is you all i smell is you blood fills my mouth exploding from the inside finally dying outside the floor, bleached in blood stained with sadness the smell of death sulfer brimstone im drowning in my senses everythings white then i am once again plunged into darkness there i wait...alone, for another try wow. i can NOT write. my moms taking me to see my doctor on...the 13th i think she said. we gotta get my prescription for Adderal filled out again and were gonna see about getting me some anti-depressants. yay for pills! i need to shave my legs. ew. anyway, whoever reads these, please tell me what you honestly think. i love getting feed-back. positive and negative. so...pretty much yeah.