hello my peeps. ugh its another exciting day at pacific high.oh yeppiee.... hah yeah jk ugh i wanna go home but evan is my bff i wuv him ha well bell rang g2g

omg im really fucking pissed off. i just spent like 20 min. writing a new entry thing and my comp. froze! shittty! ugh im bummed! well fuck this then i g2g X_x_X emo hardcore 4 life X_x_X

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::BEH:: hello nuckas! its another exciting night. okay not really its actually really fucking boring! im sober and it sux! i need drugs to function. haha thats sad. u know wut i hate..STERIOTYPES! ugh i wanna vomit. everywhere i go people look at me weird b cuz of the way im dressed. who ever said the way u dress is how you act. NOPE! not true. i hate the fact that i cant even be myself anymore.its like everyway i dress is labeled sumthing. like punk,prep,seen,emo,hippie,skater,gangster,thug...lol the list goes on and on. i dunno dont u people think its stupid how easily people judge you when they dont even know the real u? i wanna slap them and be like "wtf yea maybe i dont wear ABERCROMBIE&FITCH but that dosnt mean im stupid. that dosnt mean im not a good person. all i wanna be is myself. but who am i? am i punk? am i seen? am i emo? i like ALL kinds of music except country. i love emo/screamo/hard idie rock. i like punk. i like rock n roll. i like classic rock. i like it all. so wut if u like everything then wut does that make u in this world? its weird to think about how im gunna turn out u know? wuts gunna happen in the future......well il save that lil topic for another night cuz im pooped. well il ttyl ..... PeAcE

hello ::nuckas:: wowzers im really baked. i loooooove it very very much. mmmhum i do like maryjane. sooooo me and travis are good good good. we had our falling out but who dosnt these days? you know it seems like all guys want is sex sex sex.. i mean dont get me wrong sex is great! ::BEH:: i dunno some things we do these days just semm pointless. why do people say " dont smoke" or "dont dso drugs" well fuck the society. youth as of today is all about that shit. if we r all going to die ....why not enjoy life and do while we are alive and well. drugs are apart of this world.... why not do them... ugh i can talk forever about drugs....i love them. as life passes us by we true to be liked and we try to be ok but no one is okay living in this economy. drugs are the ecscape people want and have. drugs arnt soo evil. mmmhum i do drugs and look at me im fine hahaha yea well im gunna bone out cuz im rambling about nothing cuz im stoned. well il ttyl Love Will Tear Us Apart...AGAIN

.::NuCkA::. its almost friday! well if u ppl did not know that this friday me and my wonderful Sir.Travis (as my nucka kenzie would say) have been together for exactly 5 months. that may not seem like long to other ppl but for me its a long time. my relationships usually dont last this long and i think i really love him.hes my everything..the 1st person i had sex with..the 1st guy that actually has took me out to dinner...the 1st guy that has told me he loved me, but actually meant it. ugh i dunno i just know i love him very very much. we kinda fight alot thou cuz he likes rock and shit im not saying i dont but i mostly listen to emo o it makes me mad wen hes like "ugh not that emo shit again" it pisses me off. but o well i betta go cuz i need sum nicotine right about now lol peace out NuCkAs

ugh...dont you hate guys sumtimes? ok well i have the most awesome perfect wonderful boyfriend..but hes been acting soo weird latly. he gets mad over like the lamest little things its annoying!! .::BUH::. this sux !! i need a ciggerette really bad right now! man o man kelaime was supposed to have this camping thingee tognight..but they couldnt get a campsite cuz they were all full and now im sad cuz i wanted to go so bad and i sctually got my mom to say i could go then i figured out that they werent going. it sucked. i miss my kenzie! :'( we havnt hung out ALLL weekend. i just want monday to cum so i can see her! lol god im soo lame but seriously im soo glad we became closer friends this year. i think carolyn hates it but w/e idc cuz we r soo alike its weird sumtimes..but its cool soo many people get me and her mixed up..but its funny cuz im wayyy shorter than her lol.i just reliazed im really really EMO. i wonder if thats a good thing or bad???? i just hate how people are always hating on EMO kidz. u know? it seems as thou everyone hates EMO but i hink its actually not that bad.i love the music. i love the style of clothes. i love the black short hair. i love writing depressing poems. i love cutting myself.i love it all!!! you know another weird thing about me is that i cut myself. ugh how lame does that sound?? i know its lame but it does help me alot!!! i need some pills or sum kind of drugs! SOBER SUCKS!!! i hate beng sober it feels like everything is boring and i just sit there.. wow well this is fucking long so im gunna stop now.. LOVE WILL TEAR US APART....AGAIN! peace out NuCkA's <3

half smoked cigarettes and your the trash that infests my sheets cant make a wife out of a whore dont want your skin on me and youre youre addicted the the drug of lust detoxing the cold sweat of shame and i love your pain i gave you these roses now but i left in the thornes i'd rather hurt someone then hurt myself ill despose of you like a lighter out of fuel ill loose you somewhere on a dust shelf so this love's been worn down like songs ona tape this sex has lost all of its fun like gum loses taste i gave you these roses now but i left in the thornes i'd rather hurt someone then hurt myself ill despose of you like a lighter out of fuel ill loose you somewhere on a dust shelf im here lying in your bed babe remember what you said to me "you can be my james dean il be your sweet queen" i said that you were my first but you werent even close now like a frame in a movie your just one of many can you grant me one last wish? play russian roulette as we kiss il be your cheap novelty blow your brains out on me.