ugh...dont you hate guys sumtimes? ok well i have the most awesome perfect wonderful boyfriend..but hes been acting soo weird latly. he gets mad over like the lamest little things its annoying!! .::BUH::. this sux !! i need a ciggerette really bad right now! man o man kelaime was supposed to have this camping thingee tognight..but they couldnt get a campsite cuz they were all full and now im sad cuz i wanted to go so bad and i sctually got my mom to say i could go then i figured out that they werent going. it sucked. i miss my kenzie! :'( we havnt hung out ALLL weekend. i just want monday to cum so i can see her! lol god im soo lame but seriously im soo glad we became closer friends this year. i think carolyn hates it but w/e idc cuz we r soo alike its weird sumtimes..but its cool soo many people get me and her mixed up..but its funny cuz im wayyy shorter than her lol.i just reliazed im really really EMO. i wonder if thats a good thing or bad???? i just hate how people are always hating on EMO kidz. u know? it seems as thou everyone hates EMO but i hink its actually not that bad.i love the music. i love the style of clothes. i love the black short hair. i love writing depressing poems. i love cutting myself.i love it all!!! you know another weird thing about me is that i cut myself. ugh how lame does that sound?? i know its lame but it does help me alot!!! i need some pills or sum kind of drugs! SOBER SUCKS!!! i hate beng sober it feels like everything is boring and i just sit there.. wow well this is fucking long so im gunna stop now.. LOVE WILL TEAR US APART....AGAIN! peace out NuCkA's <3