mmm s'bin a wile .. theres not really alot to write about..diary's seem to be a list of complaints about whats rong in life..or for those rare people..wats going good.. im not sure what happins when you cant determind the difference.. everyday is average.sometimes on the verge of actually being good..but don't push it.. mmm. familys ok.tis always good when the lawyer has to come round and talk to every child. talk to my brother about why going to court isnt the best idea. and its not always a good thing to hide from the ird. he took one look at me ...your very quiet what are you hiding.at that moment i get a tx from brian.ha. like he cares anyways. like any1 really cares.tis almost certain that now not one but two of my brothers are leaving the country..sigh. o well. iv bin going to see dad for the past what 4 months.there is always a reason not to. a reason y its too hard. a reason y i dnt want to go alone..go to see dad..makes it sound like im going to pop into his house and say hey..no. mmmm *one day il go* friends are okay.well no some are good some are not.i cant do anything right for one.and patience ran out along time ago.one i worry about.one i also worry about.one i wonder what i can do to get through to her.all i love. boys..no one boy ofcourse.thoughts to jumbled.to confusing.to frustrating.to personal.to complicated to write.might as well keep it to myself ..tis beter that way.otherwise im labeled as obsesed.likely true. so thoughts are generally best kept to myself.tis easier that way.