Ha.. Original. Great. Thats how im feeling. Im still smiling. Im so happy im with Cale. Hes the love of my life. I love everything about him. I never want it to end. Yet im only 15. IM so happy when we are together. Lifes great. The chick that wanted to smash me has liek fully backed off. Im becoming great mates with my old mate. Still have my old mates but those times are changing. I still Love them.. Nothing going to change that. But I love Cale. Its so great. Its been pretty much 2 and a half months. Yeah. Hehe K sorry guys.. Hope youz are all well.. Love yaz. Xoxox Ashleigh

Wow. Everything is just so great at the moment. I really wouldnt ask for anything more.. I have great friends. I dont need any more. Im happy with the ones I got. And I got ma Shawnie back. Ah I missed you! Hehe. And ma Anna is all happy at the moment its great. Lily, well you never really know how she is but at the moment shes showing to be fine. And me and my boyfriend are Awsome. Its all going really well. I love him to bits and he loves me and thats how I want it to stay! Mmm yeap. Im seeing him tomorrow. And I got councillers. Should be great. Oh. And I get a spell off. Today was awsome. We got like half the day off to watch a play. Wasnt that bad of a play either. Heh well I must be off now.. Love Ashleigh.

hay.. Whoa I havnt been on here in ages.. Hopes you all doing well.. Man, the other day was so funny.. I was at my boyfriends house and we were alone but not for long.. And we went in his spa. And we wanted bubbles and his jets were fucked and didnt make them so we put dishwashing liqiud in it and got the hard out bubbles.. So we had my underwear off and hes boxers off and I was just in my bra coz his mum was home.. And then she like came out and started talking to us. and I think she saw my undies. And i quickly grabbed them. It was sorta weird. And then his mum was like 'You have no clothes on do you?' and I just cracked up and Cale (my boyfriend) was like yes! Anyways none of you guys are going to fnd that funny.. Sorta had to be there.. Love ya. Ashleigh xo

Decided I must update. Although I have nother extreamly important to write about. Nothing that you outsiders would understand. me and my boyfriend are on the verge of breaking up.. My best friend is having problems at home with erh mother. Havnt seen her in ages. My other good mate only talks to me to get a cell phone number and see that im alright.. Found out that my father could be cheating on my mother. nto the best news a child wants to hear. Sad thing is Dad doesnt know i know. And mum has no idea its going on. School starts in a week. Im dreading it. I cant sleep. Im stressed out. not eatting properly. Everythings jsut getting screwed. heh. Hope your life is a lot better.. Xx Ashleigh xX

Hmm well.. Lifes pretty boring. Nothing exciting has happened. Went to the poolz today with my friend melissa. We were getting changed after we had gone swimming and these guys were yelling up by the lockers. So I opened the door and they were like 'Hi, want to be friends' and jsut walked it. Was really random. And yeah.. The other day my ex served me at Mc Donalds and jsut gave me another cheeseburger because.. Well I dont know why :S. Was yummy though =) I aint complaining. Mmm New Years soon. Cant wait. Going to get completly wasted! hehe. Shall be fun. Im out. luv ya always. Ashleigh xOx. Mwah.

heh.. Well i have been told I NEED to make a new entry.. *sigh* i dont liek being told what to do, especially when they are right. haha. K so yesturday was xmas eve.. I did some catering job with my friend for someones funeral after party thing.. Funeral gathering we shall call it =) Wasnt actualyl that bad as creepy as it sounds. Umm that night I had a bad night.. Was crying, Why? that shall remain un known to you all. I must say i am fine.. Although i do hurt on my wrist.. but it shall be all good. Lily, I must say I am deeply sorry but i am fine i must assure you. Anyways.. Sorta got beta. Actually no not really. Why I was upset is still not fixed.. Rogan got back with his ex.. But i been talking to a new mate (Lilys mate.. Ma bad. mine now =P) and hes been making me happy. So yeah.. i got a new cell phone for xmas. it is great.. So umm yeah. Family is around. Desert soon.. best fuckin part of the day! Hehe. Anyways im out.. Love you all.. merry Christmas. Happy new year.. Blah blah all of that bullshit. everyone plays all thesee fuckin christms carols and its actually not A happy time. its a depressing time. People are too happy its scary. Others are jsut depresed. haha. I'd go with the whole depressed idea to describe myself. Anyways as I said i am going.. So well i will update later.. Maybe. heh. im a lazy shit.. Good night. Ashleigh xoxo Mwah

Ha. Thanx for the comment Anna. Though as much as I love you, care for you, I do not plan to share my guys with you. I love my guys Haha. Im sorry. But you are my best friend. So we can take yourselves out window shopping for guys. Well.. Here are my guys so for at this day. Andrew Andrew is my boyfriend. Many would be surprised by this because well its hardley like we go out. I hardley ever see him. its just a useless relationship although I do like him. I do not want to hurt him. Cory I liked Corey when I was form 1. I am not 4th form.. Benn on and off him for awhile. But i started texting him again and he says he loves me. That he wants to go out. Cept hes a bit of a player so he would probley just fuck me and then leave. Ouch. I dont know if I can trust him. Jonna Jonna is like a close mate of mine.. When i liek him he odnt like me and then when helikes me I dont like him. He likes me at the moment. But he talks to too many girls so i'd get to jelous =P Calvin Hmm Calvin if a form younger than me. Hes pretty hot though. And doesnt look like a form younger. But his realy good mate likes me too. But that guys ugly so nah. Not being mean or anything. Alex Alex. Ha. He went to my primary school. Hes so F'in hot! But yeah. I dont think he likes me. But he came talked to me today and asked for my cell number. Thats good enough for me. Haha. Well damn. Thats all. That I know of. See I like a bit of all of them. Its really hard. Ma bad. Hmmm, and well Jess still wants to smash me. I think. But not hard out any more. I can get around school without running away all the time :P. Was planning to dump Andrew soon. Already kissed 2 other guys while going out with him. One was definatly not my fault. But I have to say, its not like i pushed either of them away. Ha. Ohwellz. I made a new group of friends. One that use to hate my bestfriend. But everyone is all good now. ha its all good. And yeah Lily and I go talk to them. Great times. Im out. Luv ya. xOx. Ashleigh

hay guys.Im at school.. Bored. Suppost to be doing some bullshit. But it sucks. ha. Shall do it soon.. I guess. Maybe. Karli is next to me.. I have councillers next spell. ha. Shell be great. Cant wait. With Lily. my bestest friend.. Hmm I have a boyfriend Andrew, but both Calvin and Jarvis like me.. Oh my bad, and Jonna. Heh. Sorry pimpcess. Dont liek to brag or anything. Mwahah.. iM out. Luv ya xox. Ashleigh

Heh.. Nathaniel popped a waterbomb over me today =( It got my wet. Was not nice, Not at all! (There Nathaniel.. I mentioned you!) Yeah. So I saw the councillers today. I see her every week. Once a week. Shes great. Have a new friend. Jarrad. Tis getting difficult to see him now. His girlfriend went off about it. I really dont want to fuck it up for them. And I dont know. I think i been seeing him to much.. Talked to Brendon today. Hes like considering talking to me again.. He slightly believes me again.. Everything is so fucked up with that. Alicia told Brendon that I said to Nikola Aimee was a whore.. But Nicola said I said it to Alicia. All mixed up. Fact is, I didnt even say it in the first place. Umm Yeah. So for now that is it. I might add more in later.. Nite. Ashleigh xOx Mwah

Omg this is soooo stupid! K now a group of people want to smash me because at first they said I got Jarrad and Luke to beat up Darcy.. This was queer considering Jarrad and Luke were in an Exam all the way on the other side of town when this fight occured.. So then it changed.. And now i apparently nearly go Darcy Expelled.. This is queer because I dont hate Darcy, I wouldnt want to get him expelled nor beaten up. And I asked my Dean if I did and he was like 'What!? No...' And its jsut so stupid. Its like fucked me up.. Going through stages where I couldnt care if I was to die, I hate going to school, and in fear of school I spend all my fuckin lunch hiding and fear in going to class.. Its redikulous! Also some other school chicks want to beat me up because Apparently i called one of them a whore and nearly got her boyfriend (Darcy) expelled.. So yip.. Oh and i say shit to one of them, I havnt talked to her in so long tho.. I ruin my friends life, I cant go certain places in school, they have to put up with me crying all the time. Snapping at them fuck man. Tis bullshit. I did like no school work. I didnt even go to all my fuckin classes. I cant. Tis stupid. Ashleigh, xOx

So bullshit.. One of my mates if pissing me off.. Actually EVERYONE is pissing me off.. Except Anythony.. *Sigh* Melissa Melissa thinks all of her guys want me after they meet me.. Darcy dumped her because he liked me. That is so not my fault. he didnt dump her because of me, he said he didnt like her any more and that he liked me but that doesnt mean its Because of me. She asked me to come met these gusy one day, she liked one of them then that guy started liking me. it wasnt my fault. I didnt flirt of anything.. And I said I would never go out with him because thats mean to Melissa.. I thought that was nice of me, he is pretty fuckin hot. And then tonight she gets me to met up with these 2 guys and her and Kate and they ran off (Melissa and Kate) and fuckin left me with them so apparently i was flirting with them.. She also thought I wanted to be mates with her to get to get brother. Fuck that did hurt. like I would do that. Darcy Hmm well Darcy aint pissing me off. Hes my ex. I miss him. Talking to him, hanging with him, kissing him. . Except he dont like me, he has a gf. But he came out and talked to me. I cryed. Was so upset.. But I do miss him. Lily Lilys great. Shes my best friend.. But I dont know. I love her. Most of the time. But I hate it when she talks to my ex. She hated it when I talked to Hamish, wouldnt she understand how it feels!? She said Hi to him. Right infront of me. He wont even talk to me. But he talks to my best friend. Great.. Jay Jay. Yeap. Jay. He dont talk to me.. I aint good enough for his standards. He tells people he fucked me 2 times one night. I was good enough for him then. But not now.. Nop. Hmmm he hardley talks to me. Anthony I have known Anthony for ages.. I use to like him. but now I lik cant even talk to him in real life, well i mean real life like I can txt him and talk to him online but when i see him at school we dont even talk to each other.. I flashed him over msn.. He asked me to. Mm coz there is so much there to see and all.. But yer. I would love to be with him. She says im pretty aswell, and he said at one stage he wanted to do shit (might have changed by now) but it would be good.. Ha, what would be even funner would be to get on the piss with him. That wouldnt be fun.. It would be GREAT The Scientist The Scientist! omg, shes great. Love her now. She is in my science class. Shes like a teacher aid. She halps me. Ha, I have great little chats with her! She knows Jay.. And eh 'The band". Lmao. Yip. nothing exciting to say about her, But shes good. The God/s The gods in my life at the moment are the Councillers at my school. I have to. But I have decided to just go to this one once a week. Im going to tell her everything. I will write down everything that happens that week so I remember to tell her. She knows heaps of shit in my life right now anyways. Shes cool. Anyways I dont think there is anything to write about any more people.. Sha'll be all done.. For now. Heh. Oh k bye. Ashleigh xOx

Fuck Man.. School starting back tomorrow. Last term! Got a letter home from my form teacher asking my parents to explain my absences.. I wagged so much last term. I got my brother to get to it before my parents.. So he said If i stop wagging he wont give it to them.. I love him! Only problem is I dont know what im going to say to my Form teacher because she is expecting a note to explain all ma days. Shit! Ohwellz. Only hope for the best. Also I have a test about something I have no idea about.. Mmm great. Shall be a great first day back.. Oh and Pe, with a sore foot, jsut to top it all off. Ashleigh, xOx.

Had a great day today.. Spent it wiv ma bestest gurl Lily! I love her. To pieces. Dont know what I would do with out her.. Hah. Mmm. Tomorrow im going to Poruia wiv ma ova bestie.. Lily mite come to. Shall be great! Oh god, there is this guy Daniel who keeps txting me. Like everyday.. its so anoying. He asked me to go to the Mall on Friday. I said I couldnt.. think he likes me. But I like his mate.. Except my mate use to like this guy, and thats how i met him and I would feel real stink. Coz I think he lieks me too. God I must sound up myself. lmao. Ha. I am. Love always, Ashleigh xOx

Ha, Great nite. Thursday night. Went into Eastbourne, Melissa and I. We went and visited mates.. Drunk in the garage while they got stoneed smoking Pot. Then we got kicked out and went to a bombfire which was happening oon the beach.. Apparently I passed out like 10 times. I was with jay the nite. He poked me and we hooked up. I dont rememeba much.. He also said he was going to fuck me but we didnt end up doing that.. I fell into 2 big pot holes on the beach now i have a totally fucked foot.. I can hardley walk on it. Neways, so we were going to crash at this house but the mum said we couldnt. So Jay, James, Melissa and I were going to sleep out on the lawn but we got kicked off.. So we went and sleept on the beach. 4 of us, 1 blanket.. Single bed blanket for all of us to share. Fuck it was so cold. I so didnt sleep aye. was so pissed. Even puked (ew!) Im scared of what me and Jay might have done but he said i'd be all good so i hope so. Tonite Melissa and I went into Stokes and met up with this guy called T and Luke and another guy. And me and T walked off and he poked me and we hooked up and he wanted me to give him head. But I didnt want to coz we had to leave soon.. And yep.. Im Alive, its all good. Lol i Love Lily (shes mat best friend). Littlelili is her user name for this. Nite, xoxo

Well, nearly got beated up today. The same looking for me at the end of lunch. Wouldnt even lissten to me. I had to go to a teacher, you have to understand. I dont want to get beaten up! Fuck, them make me not want to go to class.. I havnt wagged so much this term, more than ever before. I have been to the coucillers everyday since Wednesday last week except Tuesday because I was at school. Cant someone give me some peace and relise I dont want to be there and that i have other shit to deal with. This describes me.. Apparently. =) Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking andproductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.

Well Friday was great memorries.. All coming back to me now.. Im going to get more Tipsy more often! Friday night I... *Smoked *Got chatted up by 12 year olds (ew!) *Ran away from my mates to be with jsut one *Drunk *Went cruising *Danced *Immitated people Probley a lot more, i wouldnt remember. Haha. Was great tho.. And then well Today.. Ha, today. Ran out of call after people came telling me I was going to get the bash Went to the councillers and there, i got a txt from Darcy, the guy who like started all this, say he didnt want to go out with me. People scearching for me at lunch.. Fuck its all so shit. I wanna die till the end of the week. Finally.. One week till the Holidays. no bofriend.. Im so going to get pissed. Im changing, I dont care. I wanna get pissed, i wanna get drugged.. I need o go on the pill. Should be a great holiday! Xox Ashleigh xoX

Hmm well.. I havnt updated for while. I dumped Hayden for Darcy.. Me and Darcy started going out last Sunday.. Umm had a great week that week. Ha, Thursday I snuck out at lunch, got snapped by the principal of the school, she told em to go back to school, but i couldnt unless i wanted to get in trouble so i didnt go.. went to the hutt with Darcy. I got pissed on Friday. (but pissed i mean both ways) cried so much 5th spell because of this shit which didnt even turn out to be true and also these maori and/or Pacific Islanders Wanna smash me. But that might i went out, got pissed and made friends with a chick called Kelly. Shes real pretty. i like her. Saturday.. Was so fucked, I felt like shit! Relised maybe i did have a tad to much to drink the night before. Heh, went and saw Darcy, he had a hang over but he had been somewhere else that night. Stayed with him the WHOLE day. Sunday.. Today. Was not good.. Went to the hutt with Darcy, Aaron, Peter and some other peoples... And who was down there. My Ex, hayden. The one i dumped Hayden for.. Well there was a big argument, at that poin Hayden told me it was all my fault, i cried. (fuck im a pussy!) and then the drop nuts went and called his dad, so his dad started going off at all of us. then yep, Later tonigh, Darcy dumped me.. Said he didnt think we should be going out while all this hayden stuff, i said i didnt care about it So we go back out. Also of my best friends are mad at me. yay..(sarcasim) And I aint looking forward to school on Monday. Im tired. Im going. Xox Ashleigh xoX

Oh k.. Yesterday I stayed home because i have the flu (tear tear).. but and Old mate came around. I use to like him, he use to like me.. but was both at different times and yep. His names Darcy. And he come over.. And hes mates with my boyfriend. Well they know each other. And eh, we started kissing and i shouldnt of but i couldnt help it.. Ohwellz. And whats even worse is I dont really feel bad.. I jsut want to see more of Darcy!

havent updated in a while.. Well, my day sucked! Woke up with a cold and a really sore throat! Then well my best friend decided she didnt want to be around me today.. I fell flat onto the floor in science and my back/ass hurts like hell! Then I went to the nurses at school, my ex's brother was there.. He gave me all this chocolate, I love him now. Then i went home and slept. I cant eat, my throat hurts too much. But mum might be getting me some chocolate soon.. Yummy. And im getting my fair cut tomorrow. Should be good. Oooh! And im talknig to my mum again. Xox Ashleigh xoX