my last entry was what like 9 days ago.. and lifes different.ofcourse time changes everything. it always will change whats good to bad..or in the rarity whats bad to good. the weekend is what changed everything.well not everything.just boys. those anoying boys that you just cant live without. mmm it isn't that its changed badly.. im very happy.honestly the weekend although the drink makes some parts rather blurry. it was still fucking wiked. its was like wow.so much fun, with different people.and him. most gurls without meaning to have a list of "their guy"..what you imagine you'll find. hes not perfect by any means. but it fits or so ashlee pointed out to me kind caring lets me know i can talk about stuff that matters sweet quite gentlemen like, well he tries very funny a bit quirky not cocky but still confident,yet still has a shy side nice to your friends understanding not bad to look at and often suprising honest.very honest it fits. and even if you did find this guy.isnt it more likely that he's not even going to notice you!but he did thats so strange. he tells me how he thinks the world of me. that nothing good happens to him it seems like it could be a line or maybe he genuinely means it. people who know him constintly tell me how hes so proud. its like what the hell. im happy.days are good.we'v got this weekend planned.itl b fun.n wel be alone.itl be interesting. i ddnt even think itd last days.that itd be far to hard.that we were all to different. the first day i was so damn unsure. n then slowly it just fitted. no1 put up a major fight like it thought this is the first time iv really thought about whats going on. but what about life before he came. what about the guy i was fully n totally obsessed with. theres bin no time to miss it, too miss him. i dont like him anymore.but it wasnt a choice of ending it it was just something i knew i had to do. how can you be utterly happy with some one but at the same time a tiny weeny part of you thinks what happend the plans..the hopes..everything in the last few weeks. theres been no time to actually let it go. it was like it was a lucky escape in a way. this new thing is so comfortable.so fun. so everything iv wanted for ages..im startn to really like this guy.a guy who's people i swear against.lol whats the world coming to. xxx