hehe. .... ^^;; haven't written in awhile cuz like i've been grounded or busy. i have more restrictions on my internet time. -_- i can't be on from 9am to 5pm. >> except for the fact that the guys were experimenting with the fireworks and about blow us up! < but she needs to spend time with her grandma. i'll live. -_- i have a lot of friends. but still. ;_; i still hate my parents. i started writing suicide letters and stuff. v.v i'm pathetic. but i'm tan!!! ^^ and yeah.... thats bout it. laterz.

hehe. .... ^^;; haven't written in awhile cuz like i've been grounded or busy. i have more restrictions on my internet time. -_- i can't be on from 9am to 5pm. >> except for the fact that the guys were experimenting with the fireworks and about blow us up! < but she needs to spend time with her grandma. i'll live. -_- i have a lot of friends. but still. ;_; i still hate my parents. i started writing suicide letters and stuff. v.v i'm pathetic. but i'm tan!!! ^^ and yeah.... thats bout it. laterz.

*fake cries* no ones home and i'm bored! >> but i got a tan. << i went from sheet white to pale. ^.^ ;_; but i'm all alone.... back to your usual teenage deppressing diary... my life sucks ass.... my parents need to die.... << is that good enough?? << or do i have to go on?? oh wellz. later.

i've been grounded and unable to get online. so here we go. i'm dating pat. he called me a few weeks ago and asked me out. i said sure why not? so ya know we're dating. schools out and i am dead my grades sucked major ass but who cares i still get into fort. katey's gone ;_; she's in los vegas won't be back for while my family finally got me to go swimming it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be fucking cousin got me banned off my RP he was pissing everyone off and i got banned >> most likely won't happen again....

OMIGOD! OMIGOD! i just sand pie jesu for a bunch of people we didn't mess up at all ^^ it was so nerve wracking! >> katey got me a bunch of candy and a funny card for my b-day but pap beat her by getting me a hope chest its so pretty now i need stuff toput in it >> well i hung out w/ jake he met the rents at caberet that went well god i love him >> but i don't stand a fighting chance *sighs* well g2g laterz ^^

i sang Pie Jesu for the rehursal(sp?) >< well life sucks as usual but i deal later

i'm all alone... *sniffles* and i wan't able to see the play thing that was on tonight...>< just another boring weekend... i hate my life someone shoot me... you know i'm just kidding hehe i had watermelon for dinner go me i was online most of the day go me again my RP character is wierd she talks to her horse and is really paranoid but its fun playing her just a couple more days till cabaret and my b-day well i'm done here peace spazz

i saw my crush today... he kept looking at me ^^ the show must go on! Pie Jesu will be ready... i hope? please let me sleep god... i'm really tired i love to complain ^^ the cival war encampment was fun if we were the real army... we would have been shot and killed... by the people behind us friendly fire!!! oh well night

okay so i performed Pie Jesu for my class i sucked but they liked it my b-days in a week. ^^ yay! i'm hoping to invite my crush to my party >> but that might not work out... i went down to whipple creek it was fun i love going down there cabaret is in a few days stressing but i'm okay alex is learning his part faster than i thought tommorrow is the stupid cival war encampment >< i hope it rains tommorrow i miss the rain i miss alot of things but.... oh well my life is full of unneeded drama i'm not joking i hate drama i hate my life but i'll deal i now know how i'm gonna die i will be shot in the head not by myself, mind you but by some dude that doesn't want freedom and liberty in america. i don't think its deppressing at all i'd much rather die fast than slow but oh well nite all my bed is calling my name... ^^

okay so i really cut it. ^^ all the guys seemed to notice and like it. they all told me that i looked nice.... ofcourse so did all of my female friends. its soooo short. but its still cool. its like border-line emo-hair. tommorrow i have another test. i know i failed my science one and i had a math test today. i hate tests. its so hot out. i hate summer and late spring. my arms are two different colors. >> okay so...?? i hate having limited time on the internet and phone. its so gay! i really don't know why i'm writing in this... it seems so pointless. but who cares? i heart green day... ^^ >> i'm soooo tired 24ish days till schools out!!! ^^.... no wait thats a damn...>.< i hate my room... but i love my bed... nite.

okay so i like to talk online, and stuff. well people think i'm bitchy and mean, when i'm not. i know i get snippy w/ people sometimes.... but thats natural right?? its in my nature to be mean and pick fights... i'm working on it i believe i'm too nice, and i need to grow a back-bone sometimes... i hate school the drama i hate drama i really do i really don't know what i'm going to do w/ my friend shes such a slut but shes still my friend i will stand by her till she does something wrong.... which she has. i hate my life everything about it eccept for my friends i heart them all i haven't written for awhile i've been grounded damn parents >< i hate myself i really, really do i need a hug

my life sucks.... nothing new there.... i'm looking forward to crying myself to sleep tonight... waking up with stains on my face... i need a hobbie.... the scares are finally gone... thank god, i've run out of excuses... my parents suck major ass.... yeah... damn them to hell....

i'm soooo bored.... i packed my shit like all day.... my back hurts. i slept over at my friends house; we watched green day: bullet in a bible. it was interesting, to say the least. my friends are odd. but so am i, so its all cool. we do random things at school. and FYI, orlando bloom is mine! back off! ^^ nothing else is new.... my life still sucks major ass and seems to get worse each day.... damn... i hate saying this but.... i need a hug...

i'm moving.... again. for like the fourteenth time, holy crap! thats pretty much it. peace.

okay. i spent the week end w/ katey, it was cool. we saw harry potter 4 in theaters on saturday. we also saw zathura, it was also cool. katey has odd friends. they are all so dramatic.; they like to make everything always "oh pity me, pity me." its so fucking anoying. i also had an awkward conversation w/ on of her friends on hot guys. it was awkward because it was a guy i was talking to. that usually doesn't bug. i now know not to let him meet my b/f. so far my life still sucks. and i can't do anything about it. i hate my life. if only god could srike me down now before it gets worse. *sighs* but.... he hates me so he lets me suffer. god dammit.....

so i wore my glasses today; everybody was all freaking out and stuff. come on! haven't you seen someone w/ glasses before god?! we are still singing the evil christmas songs in chior. i hate them soooo much! but, i tolorate them for the time being. i have like soooo many problems at school. all the girls glare at me and they insist that i'm a "gothic witch lady"-- don't ask. i have so many enemies at school its scary. in my martial arts class me and my friend katey were sparing and making faces at each other behind the punching bag-- again don't ask. we are testing at the end of the month! we are testing for advanced white belt-- i just started like four weeks ago. i'm spending the week-end at katey's house; i don't feel like going to the middle of nowhere. yeah.... i hope we'll have fun! ^^

okay, so today i saved two of my goth friends' asses. they were being attacked by girls! my friends of course, but they were girls! my painting sold! ^^ my friends mom bought it. hummm?... what else?... well as usual my life sucks. nothing new about that. my parents are taking our land-lord to court. my friends are all pissed at my other friend jake because he dumped some girl i don't even know. i'm probably the only girl that isn't pissed at him. we are learning about the periodic table in science. WOO... what fun we will have! i hate science! along with math. i like to write, so thats all i care about right now. in swing chior we are singing christmas songs; i HATE christmas, every little bit of it.... i want to die soooo bad. i don't really care that people will miss me when i'm gone.... if they really cared they would like help me or something! we had a sub for like the third day in a row. god i hate subs. (if you haven't noticed i hate alot of things) well... that sums it up for today... don't know if i'll be here tommorrow.... but later.

i sware to god the next prep that so much as looks at me funny, is going to wish to fucking god they were never born!!! arg!! and will somebody please tell my counslers that i'm fine!!! i do NOT need mental help!!! i HATE girl drama! i sware, every guy friend i have their g/fs are like all "omigod! stay away!!!" "don't steal my b/f!" uh... hello? if i wanted to steal them i would have done so. arg!! i loose sooo many friendships that way. one minute its all good, then all of a sudden... BAM! their g/fs are threatening to kill me! i hate my school. the people there suck! some of the teachers are cool, but most of them suck. almost everybody hates me, especially the girls. can we say jealosy? just because i'm smarter, more talented, and have more guy friends, does not mean that i'm out to steal all the b/fs and cast spells on everyone! oh. don't get me started about the witch thing. one: i am NOT a witch! yes, i may hang out with goths and punks, but please! i'm a normal humanoid creature, well.... maybe not normal.... i still don't see the point in this; but, oh well, not many people know me. god... i want to crawl up in a corner and die... i hate my life... but i'm to afraid to follow through with my plans... i guess i'll just sit here and cry....

oh my fucking god! my life sucks! if any body reads this, (which i hope never happens) i am pathetic. i am probably the most hated kid at school, everybody has something against me, i sware! god, people stare at my like i'm some freakish alien or something. argggg!!!!! okay. so i pissed of one my friends g/f. she like is all "don't steall my b/f!" and "this is your last warning" i want to know where the hell my other warnings went! i'm not going to steal her b/f. he's just a close friend, god! i have a few questions: one: what the hell did i do to deserve this life? two: why does everything bad happen to me? three: what the hell did i do to piss everybody off? my sibs are soooo anoying, they walk into MY room like all the time! arggg! i want to be adopted! my chior concert was tonight! it went terrible, though. i was laughing half the time and nobody sang their part right... at least not to me. well... that kinda sums up what i did today... tommorrow will be just as pathetic and miserable.... God, why don't you just take me now!? please! take the pain away.... i need a hug....