okay so i like to talk online, and stuff. well people think i'm bitchy and mean, when i'm not. i know i get snippy w/ people sometimes.... but thats natural right?? its in my nature to be mean and pick fights... i'm working on it i believe i'm too nice, and i need to grow a back-bone sometimes... i hate school the drama i hate drama i really do i really don't know what i'm going to do w/ my friend shes such a slut but shes still my friend i will stand by her till she does something wrong.... which she has. i hate my life everything about it eccept for my friends i heart them all i haven't written for awhile i've been grounded damn parents >< but i have to live w/ them for a few more years then i'm gone off to college some days i wish i had killed myself... but that would be selfish and i'm stronger than that i know i am this is a really long entry but i have a lot to say my aweful dreams still come back i can hardly sleep i had a dream that i burned myself alive in my house and to tell you the truth... it felt good *sighs* i need serious help i have a whole lot that i keep from my mom and it makes me feel bad to the point of wanting to puke she doesn't know that i used to cut or that i'm bi or that i'm in dire need of a therapist but i will tell her or she will find out all in good time now... about my day it sucked and it was like 200 degrees in all of my classes elizebeth was pissing me off i know i failed my sience quiz my old crush is visiting my class on friday i need to bring up my grades... fast the drama is going to be the death of me jeni still hangs out w/ steph the heat is making me pissy my parents are making me go swimming my cat is out to kill me my parents really don't care about me the mirror lies about my looks i'm hungry and nothing looks good i haven't sent out my party invites i hate the skirt i'm wearing my friends are digging my grave for me w/ their drama i really want to shoot myself right now no one seems to listen to me jake was holding hands w/ that bitch again there are too many projects due this week most of them aren't finished on a happier note: my b-day is in 10 days WOO! GO ME! ^^ another year older great somebody please shoot me now... arg... >< i hate myself i really, really do i need a hug