This is my first enrty in this diaty. Monday kayla, jess, chrissy, mike, mike's friend, nick, nick's firend it think is name is ben not sure oh well, gary, chase, kelley, tasha i think she is coming don't know, and me, we are all going to chrissy and i's birthday party which we are goin to play paintball and it is goin to be so much fun. I get to shot at gary my mom's loza of a boyfriend i don't like him at all. a lot of people already know that but oh well. he does nothing at all, all he does is just stay in my mom's room, wat a lazy bastered, and chse is his son and on day when chrisy, kayla, kelley, and i were at the mall he went on chrissy's computer which was not cool to being with but then he sighed in to chrissy's yahoo massager under her name and jess was on so she thought it was chrissy or me, she said hey of hi i can't remeber wat she told me but then he typed this is chase chrissy and kathy's stepbrother (something like that) and he is not my stepbrother i can't belive he said that. i know my mom is thinking of marring this lozer (gary) but im not going to the wedding i don't care wat she says. i don't ever want ot be related to that family not even by marriage. Kayla is more of a sister than chase is my step brother. My life is just full of stress and full of nightmares. if it was not for the friends i have left i don't know wat i would do. and i say the friends i have left b/c kristy dose not ever want to be my friend again but that's not my problem if she does not like me im not goin to change me so she can like me.she is throwing away 5 yrs of friednship, but i hurts when someone says they no longer want to be ur friend just cuz of ur attitude, (that is why she hates me) i don't under stand what is wrong with it i did nothing to her nothing at all. and kelly Mclean (not the one i was talkin about earlyer)well any way she is starting a hole bunch of shit with us and balming it on kayla which is not cool at all, it is a really long story that i don't have time to tell, some of u who read this will know wat in talkin bout but any way kelly said their is a lot of people that want to kick kayla, chrissy and i's asses and she also said her boyfriend was going to kick our asses but the imaginaty boyfirnd never showed up. kayla said that she saw him and he said "the only one that can see him is kelly" lol our nickname fo her from us is "Fat Hippo" i like that name it fits her well. it is just me and chrissy home today dad and nick went to some meeting good it will get nick of my back fo awail. i need my space from him or i will flip out on him and everyone that has a younger brother knows wat im talkin bout. well got to go ~ME~