it has been a long time since i have wrote in this i hope to write more but the computer at my dad's is down and im at my mom's right now which is never a good thing it is like everytime i am here i am getting yelled at or in truble. the only good things about coming here is chrissy Lyndsey kelley and mike i really dont like Gary or chase!! Lately i have been feeling alone even though i would be in a group of people it is a hard feeling to descride i have no idea why i feel this why i guess i have to deal with it and i think it is because i keep stuff in side dark secrets that most people dont know that i wish i could tell but i cant... i have wish fo so many things in my life and now that i look back they were to hurt my self like when i was younger (i never told anyone this) i use to lay in bad and wish i would brake my leg i have no idea why and i also have no idea why i am writing it is this Entry or even in this internet thing oh well i better stop before i revel things i dont want to or anyone to know well bye ~ME~