(Edit) well she was at the point of tears. i told her. 'maybe you just annoy the fuck out of me, and i can't stand being around you.' so maybe i am personal about some things. i like to keep things to myself. thats just the way i am, and when you push me and try to make me talk to you like someone im not... well i just . . . . i dont knwo. it makes me hate you? just get the fuck out of my personal business... if i wanted you to know i would tell you. please dont use this against me. to a different someone: well it must be nice to have everything you have ever asked for. there is one single person in this entire world that could never possibly make me want to slit my throat. and yes. you know who you are - i've told you before. i wish you were here now. everyone else can just go and fuck themselves except for me and you. hm. thats a nice thought. yeah im kind of worked up right now. blah. no one to talk to.... i just want to get out of here. my house. somebody come and whisk me away please? (Edit) i will only carve my name in this tree. i langauage heard across the world. the cry of a childed that hurts. she thought she would last forever antell the boy took her and kept her forever stop and smell the roses because your not going to remember forever distence is not yet the answer but only a place to hide i use to hide underneath a table for the fear someone would get me they will know the real me. but i dont what to hide from me. i want to be with you. i dont what to forget you but i now your just to out of reach so i will try my hardist to run away from you. but like a song of glory i will never forget you. forget the summers and hold the falls keep a leaf in a jar and smell the smell of falls loves. keep a flower in a bag and smell the rich summers sweetness.. melodies of laughter coming from my bed room at night is what i will remember as a talked to you. your laugh is always going to bring a sence of happyness but your voice will bring on the heartbrake. so as a say goodnight in a sad tone. i would like you to know im not mad at you but yet jealous that i cant have you. i want so many things in life. the song of a keyboard that i know im making the sounds im writing the songs im doing the do's i have got so long to go. but im in a rush every moment i take is a moment im wasting. you become far out of hands reach. funny thing is you were never in hands reach in the first place if i was right next to you what would you do.? i know i would go for your hand, and feel your touch. the touch of your lips. the feel of your hips the smell of your hair the love of your presents your just a thought that i want to progress into i want to know you i want to get in side you in side that head and jump along with you. if i lived next door to you. i would be lieing with you. and be covered in you skin. hold your head and look in to your eyes and see throught you. to find myself. is just a wast to find you is worth every moment i wast (Edit) drayton asked me out! i said yes... the end!