well today. it was alright i mean, it could've been better - it could've been worse. i supose i dont really have an opinion about it. sometimes i have this ... conviction?, that im a bad friend. not only to one person either. and it makes me feel horrible. because its not like they're people i dont like as much as my other friends or anything, its just like i dont know how to handle them or it. and then it just makes me feel bad in the end. and probably them too. so i have a hard time expressing myself as we all know. or i do anyway... but its becoming easier for me to admit that im a lot more sensative than i'd prefer to be. and before when i would just blow feelings off or deny myself it would only hurt me. i loved sitting outside tonight. it was cool and we were under the stars and moon and such. tnr you are too much for the eyes to see. i freaking love you. and well.... i dont know but you're just amazing and the way you think. wow. i think that zoloft doesn't make you happy. it just erases your emotions so you dont feel sadness. it's a secret so dont tell yourself: but every single person who is reading this is amazing in their very own way. but the funny thing is, is that no one realizes how amazing they truly are. im having a hard time getting over this. so im going through my barbie stuff as of now. it sort of makes me sad becuase i remember little britta, and the way i used to be. and well... i guess i was still like that. im jealous how kids are so oblivious and dont understand and just are so innocent and open minded. today was .... i dont know i can't think of a word to describe, but its always nice to start out with a "today was...". i picked up mi amiga de espanol [?] nosotras hablamos en espanol en mi coche, cuando nosotros vamos al apartamento de annie. me gusta mucho mi amiga. fall for it! me and my mom are fuding! drayton got in a fight with caelb and everyone insists on telling me 'the story'!