So, I'm sitting in my room amongst many boxes bags and crates. It's really heartbreaking yet exciting all at once. I really didn't want it to end this way, but I know it's the right thing to do. Since I got home today I've cried I think about 5 times. The stupidest stuff will get me going too. I was crying while eating dinner. lol oh man. I've got way more stuff then I anticipated. It's crazy. I mean, I know I'm a packrat with sentiments, but geeze. in more depressing matters my dad found the title to my car before I did, so he cornered me. I had no choice but to sign it. What was I gunna do? I really hate fighting and drama, so I let him have his way. Doesn't it always work that way? I suppose I'm never going to get it back. I will be very surprised if i do. But I will be DAMNED if he gets my car AND the money I owe him. If he wont give me my car back, he's not seeing 1 penny from me. I'm kind of really bittersweet about the rest of it though. I'm really gunna miss jeff savannah layla and lane. like i'm tearing up just thinking about it. Layla and Lane don't understand why i'm leaving and its not fair to them. Layla lights up as soon as she sees me. and Lane loves listening to the Beatles with me. i really truely am going to miss those kids. But I know this is for the best. it has to be for the best. because theres nothing better here. nothing. i just pray to any God that will listen that I have the strength to get through all this. My head is a million places right now. I can't finish a single thought process, so I'm gunna go.