Ok so this week was good until about tuesday at lunch. What happened Tuesday at lunch, you ask? Well, i asked my doubles partner if she was going to be at practice that afternoon. She said and I quote, "No, I can't make it today, I have Coffee House." What the hell is that? We had Regionals the very next day and she hadn't played in two weeks!! Now, this is my SENIOR YEAR and Doing really well in badminton was important to me, not only because my sister and i did really well last year, but also because I had worked really hard and wanted to make my people proud. I reminded her about Regionals and she told me she might not be able to make it also because of Coffee House. She is my freaking doubles partner and if she didn't go, i didn't go and that was not about to happen! i would have pulled out of class by her hair if she hadn't shown up, not kidding!!!!! I was pissed, both coaches were pissed, and our friends on the team were all rather confused. At Regionals, in the first game, she couldn't hit the strings to save her soul. I was just getting madder and madder by the second, but I knew that I fwe could just get throught the first game we would go to State. We lost the first match, won the second and barely won the third. We are going to State, but we didn't win another game after that. We ended up playing nine total matches, winning only four of them. Now i am not putting all the blame on her, i wasn't exactly perfect yesturday, but I did put more into it. she wasn't even moving that much, which pissed me off more. Then when I get home, my dad calls my mother and gives me the phone so I can report back to her. She made me even more mad by trying to comfort me and tell me it was just a game, nothing more. Bullshit! to me, it wasn't just a game, it was something I love doing and hate to fail at because I know I am better then what happened. You know how sometime you are just in one of those moods where you just need to be pissed for awhile and you hate it when people try to make you feel better? That was where i am living right now! If she blows off any more practice, i swear I will hurt her the second we are done with State! I love her to death, but she need to get her comitments straightened out. Badminton came first, Coffee House second, not the other way around! ............................................. ............................................. Sorry about the ranting. i need to find another outlet. Maybe i join kick boxing or something else where I can be violent and its ok. that would be fun. I could just go somewhere and beat the crap out of some poor unexpecting mat or dummy dude, and nobody would get hurt unless I went overboard and hurt myself, that would suck. I decided i wasn't going to ask the guy to Homecomeing because I don't really think he is interested in me that way. So alas my Homecoming date is my dear friend Genny, if we ever get dresses and tickets. We should probably get on that concidering the dance is next Saturday. Ok well I am uber tired and its only 5:30. Dang tonight is going to suck! Kerstin