FEELING-tired,sick,and all the other words that can explain what im feeling!! so0o i havent written in here in a long time!! maybe b/c everything was the same and everything was going great!! BUT NOW IM SINGLE AND I CAN GET WITH ANYONE I WANT!! i really didnt think that if someone loved ur w/all there heart that they could sink sooo freakin low and pull off something like that!! i mean to even fuck another girl that really fucked up!! but u fucked up not me!! i wish u could just know how bad u really did u missing out on a great person...that did everything for u!! i loved u sooo much!! but now all i can see is a fucking gay ass guy that only wants to FUCK...so go a head fuck.....i really hope that he figures out what he is really missing...b/c if he just wanted for me which wasnt going to be long that it would have been the best!! b/c it would have ment something and it just wasnt a 1night thing...well peace w/that!! BUT...there is one more thing....theres this boy that i have been talking to about ben and he was there for me the other night and sat there and listened to me cry for and hour!! that really ment a lot to me!! and i hung out w/him last night he made me laugh...hes a great guy and i think im going to get to know him... ohh yeah and that 311 ticket i got for ben...yeah im giving it to matt!! yay!! peace out~