*The feelings you don’t know…* To determine the satisfactory of the loved ones words You can never tell because they speak of no such thing You are begging to figure out what it is that there thinking, What it is that makes them smile when nothing is said What is it that makes them think about you? And what is it that makes you think about them You can’t even answer your own question Like why is it that when they smile while their reading it makes me want them more It makes me feel like I need to know, I want to smile too, and maybe I just want to be next to you... Maybe I need to be next to you. But this is where it gets tricky Because you might think at the same time you want to be with them and they don’t want to be with you You can’t tell you get sad and they loose and smile and you loose that feeling because your worried what’s wrong and you want to know how their feeling instead of checking your feelings right now… So you just walk away, And they walk to you and ask the 4 famous words… What Is Your Problem? That’s when you say nothing then you admit there is a problem, That’s when the fight comes in and you say stuff that you don’t really mean.. Then you realize what you did and you take it back but they don’t take you back So your alone with no one but your self and that one person that you don’t have anymore, so you take them home and you don’t talk the whole way there and you stop the car, and turn your head and as your getting ready to talk the door shuts You take your hands and realized how bad of a person you really are So you go home and check your messages and there isn’t any You take the phone and call them and they don’t answer either so you leave a message and there listening to it and deleting them as your leaving it. Then you fall on your bed listening to music replaying it all over once more You think about it so hard it becomes a night mare A night mare that wakes up to a kiss good morning and an, I forgive you afternoon… I wrote this during study hall and that is that... oh yea and tuesdays and fridays i have to see my new theropist my life is fucked up now, ever since everything happened, with the ex's and shit like that.. well i g2g im too emo for this right now.... much emo love.. I slit my wrist for you~