Today was another pointless day. Another day that will be probably spent without him! Yesterday I went to see him Umpire..thats about the only time I get to see him. Last night he got mad at me because I didnt say goodnite..well neither did he! Besides he wasnt on, and it was after midnight and I didnt wanna call his house! I even had trouble sleeping last night, because we didnt say goodnite or even I love you! Seriously I cant remember the last time we said "I love you" to each other. I wanna cry so bad! I just want him to hold me and tell me we're gonna be all right! s0metimes i fell so empty because I'm not with him. For the last couple of days he seemed so quiet, I wondered if I did anything! The werid thing was, he asked ME if there was anything wrong with ME!! I dont get it...maybe I never will. Well I'm gonna watch him umpire, maybe we'll do something after. Hopefully...