This will probably be in Sarahs diary too, cause we were discussing it in Video. Health Class!! Seriously every year we talk about self-esteem. This year she told us, or more or less the book told us, that we have low self-steem if we have sex. Ummm...I don't think so. So having sex or anything related to 'sexual activity' means u have low self-esteem. NIIIIIICE!! assholes. anyhow thot I'd tell u! Well I'm sure everyone had a nice labor day, but me! I didnt do anything. I stayed home. I should have been at camp. I"ll tell you how my weekend should have went, considering it will never happen again. *tear*. Friday I should have came home from school, finished packing the car, waited for mommy to load her stuff, and stop and get McDonalds and leave for the 2 hours of camp. Daddy and AJ usually drive either before or after us. Then we'd get to camp. Unpack while I just did nothing, cause the first hour is boring. Then everyone would come to my uncles camp and have dinner. Then Saturday, go to the Tienesta Mall, then cookout at Kays. Sunday Labor Day cookout at Kays. Thats the day u make some real good money! My uncles and dad would all play poker and they'd pay you to go and get food and drinks for them. Monday come home. Its fun! But i prob. wont be going up there ever again *crying*. Dont ask why! Please! I dont wanna talk about it! It feel so unreal...I just feel so unreal. Like when I look at my life this isnt it. Some days I feel like running the water in the tub, and just soaking in there and drift under the water till it all goes away. But of course, it would make matters worse for other pple when I'm gone. I dont know how I make it some days through school or even at home with out crying. I know a sensible thing to do. But I dont wanna do it alone. I only know of one other person who actualy go with me. I think you know who you are!