Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing
I
Would love to beat the face
Of any mother fucker that's thinking they can change me
White knuckles grip pushing through for the gold
If you're wanting a piece of me
I broke the mother fucking mold
I'm drowning
In your wake
Shit rubbed
In my face
Teething
On concrete
Gums bleeding
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing
I
Struggle in violated space
Sell out mother fuckers in the biz that try to fuck me
Hang from their T's rated P.G. insight
I ain't selling my soul when there's nothing to buy
I'm livid
In my space
Pissing
In my face
Fuck you
While you try
To fuck me
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I was
You ain't fucking changing
Me
Dig
Dig
Dig
Dig
Mother fucking dig
Dig
Mother fucking dig
Dig
Mother fucking dig
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help you tie the rope around your neck
Let me help to talk you the wrong way off the ledge
Let me help you hold the glock against your head
Let me help to chain the weights onto your legs
Get on the plank, fuck!
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I am
Rearranging
Dig
Bury me
Underneath
Everything that I was
Slowly changing
Wish you were committing
Suicide
Sucking on a mother fucking tailpipe
Dead man walking on a tight rope
Limbless in the middle of a channel
Bob away
Kelly Clarkson... To Chris... I dont want to ever hear from you again, at least anytime soon.
I get the same old dreams, same time every night
Fall to the ground and I wake up
So I get out of bed, put on my shoes, and in my head
Thoughts fly back to the break-up
These four walls are closing in
Look at the fix you've put me in
Since you been gone, since you been gone
I'm outta my head, can't take it
Could I be wrong, but since you been gone
You cast a spell, so break it
Oooohhh - Whhooooaaa - Ooooohhh
Since you been gone
So in the night I stand beneath the back street light
I read the words that you sent to me
I can take the afternoon, the night-time comes around too soon
You can't know what you mean to me
Your poison letter, your telegram
Just goes to show you don't give a damn
Since you been gone, since you been gone
I'm outta my head, can't take it
Could I be wrong, but since you been gone
You cast a spell, so break it
Oooohhh - Whhooooaaa - Ooooohhh
Since you been gone
[INTERLUDE]
If you will come back
Baby you know
You'll never do wrong
Huhhhhh
Since you been gone, since you been gone
I'm outta my head, can't take it
Could I be wrong, but since you been gone
You cast a spell, so break it
Oooohhh - Whhooooaaa - Ooooohhh
Ever since, you been gone
[GUITAR SOLO OUTRO]
Since you been gone, since you been gone
I'm outta my head, can't take it
Since you been gone, since you been gone
Chris (Part One)
I always loved him,
Ever since we met.
He never did a damn thing wrong,
But still my plan was set.
I want to cut my pain away,
And drown myself in blood,
To leave a new mark every day,
Got to get ready for my own flood.
I'm all alone;
By myself.
Unprotected, unloved, unseen, and in hell,
I cried on Christmas and my birthday
And every day inbetween-
Cutting my pain away
Scars never to be seen.
I want to see a crying heart
It would have a tear at the point.
It would represent me: shattered and torn apart.
Maybe that's just my life's point...
Chris (Part Two)
At the bottom of a bottle
I'll be dead before tomorrow.
Kill me now
Or kill me later,
Just make sure you're
Coming with me.
Youre too good to lose
And I love you.
The Break-up Poem
I try so hard to let you go,
But still my mind will tell me no:
That you cant leave me, not so soon!
My mind tells me that we cant be through!
Not this fast, it IS too early,
My heart is masked and is making me dreary.
Please come home!
Don't leave me crying all alone!
I know you care!
I know you're there!
Through my window you're watching me bleed...
You know you ARE what I need.
You shake your head in sympathy.
I know you're here, but I still feel empty.
I tearfully watch you turn to leave...
And know YOU know you should help me.
I guess you're leaving home,
Leaving me to cry and die all alone...
I guess you don't care,
And know that now you wont be there.
I wrote this thinking about Avenged Sevenfold, and my hatred towards many people.
Please comment.
How Your Life Ends
Coming in from the night's end
I seek revengence through my sin
I can't help it- it's not my fault
I use against you everything I was taught.
Cheater, liar, you're a bitch
Watching you, your blood flows thick
Cutting you open, cutting you deep,
On the ground your blood does seep
Hearing you scream as I'm watching you die
Slowly you begin to cry
Your eyes roll into the back of your head
And finally, now you're dead.
comment and tell me how it is, im not so sure about it.
Why must I go through such pain?
Y'all are always acting so insane!
Every day I cry because of you two
I cant stand you saying every day "fuck you!"
Throwing shit at each other,
It's hard to believe you used to be lovers.
My mom's a bitch and thats a fact
I think one day she just finally cracked.
She's the crazy one, thats true...
And every dude she dates, she'll do!
My dad's the safer one I know for sure,
To all my problems he's the cure.
He's so sane its hard to tell
That when he and momma were in love he went through so much hell.
Now what about me?
I dont know what I am it's so hard to see.
I'm a lot of hurt a little happiness,
Sometimes I want to slit my wrists!!!
ok i love this song and i havent heard it in a while on the radio so if you want to read the lyrics!
Push
Matchbox 20
She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough.
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in,
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved,
By a hand that's touched me,
And I feel like something's gonna give,
And I'm a little bit angry.
Well, this ain't over, no, not here,
Not while I still need you around.
You don't owe me, we might change,
Yeah, we just might feel good.
(chorus)
I wanna push you around,
Well, I will,
Well, I will,
I wanna push you down,
Well, I will,
Well, I will,
I wanna take you for granted,
I wanna take you for granted,
Yeah, yeah, well, I will.
She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me,
Like I'm a little untrusting,
When I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya,
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me.
You couldn't stand to be near me,
When my face don't seem to want to shine,
'Cause it's a little bit dirty.
Well, don't just stand there, say nice things to me,
'Cause I've been cheated, I've been wronged,
And you, you don't know me,
Yeah, well, I can't change.
I won't do anything at all.
(chorus)
Oh, but don't bowl me over.
Just wait a minute, well, it kinda fell apart,
Things get so crazy, crazy.
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby, baby.
(chorus)
all my poems are under R609C copywritation.
All of the pride that I wore
Doesn't shine anymore;
All of the strength that I kept
Seems as if it has finally left;
All of the tears that I've never cried
Begin flowing out as if you've died;
All of the faith I've had leveled
Went down a step and spoke to the Devil;
All of the love I had for you in my heart
Was shattered and was torn apart...
Why can't you just simply see
That I can't go on when you don't love me?
This is a longer one. All of it's true. Especially the "will to live" part. I'm sorry. I love you more than anything and you will never know how much I love you. I'm sorry for this also. I know you cant read this but I still love you anyways.
Will you ever?
I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.
I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.
I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.
You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.
I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.
You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where I'd be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.
Love
Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the guys I've ever met,
You're the one I can't forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you best.
Yeah all you can guess who that's to. Especially Steph, Charles, Raven.... yeah.... no not david... :P
This is for Chris... I love you. (Shut up, Stephanie! :P)
Do You Love Me?
Do you love me,
or do you not?
You told me once,
but I forgot.
I do believe that God above,
created you for me to love.
If I go to heaven and your not there,
I'll wait for you by the golden stairs.
If I have too,
I WILL go to hell to be with you.
FREESTYLE!! lol... long time i havent put up a new poem... so, freestyle! LOL!
Cell Phone
I got my cell phone turned on today-
Got 150 minutes to waste away!
Bored outta my mind
And a cell phone that works round here is one of a kind!
So drop me a call
I wouldn't mind at all!
Better yet, text me
It's only 1/2 a minute, don't ya see?
I would like to waste 150 minutes right away
Cause I got my cell phone turned on today!!!
Ok, so I am obsessed with two things in my life right now: Unholy Confessions, a kick ass song by Avenged Sevenfold, and Baby Pink. Well, here's the lyrics to U.C. :
I'll try, she said as he walked away.
Try not to lose you.
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
I'll be here waiting tested but secure.
Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.
I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confined in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me.
Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.
I dedicate this to Cameron H, who fucked my little brother's life up. Now I'm coming after you, bitch. Believe that. Yeah. Make you cry again, you pussy. Run and tell mommy.
A lot of shit's about to go down.
People are advisin' us to get outta town.
But no, fuck that shit-
I'm 'bout to stick my foot so far up his ass
He can't shit,
Stuff him in locker,
And kick his head in like I'm playin' soccer.
And his bitch? I'm fixin' to box her.
Never been able to stand for shit like this-
Like my ass? Give it a kiss.
Told each other what we had to say
Now it feels like everything's gone away.
No friendship feelings anymore
He didn't ask me out... I feel so bored.
I thought I knew him better than this-
And I thought we would both be bliss
Thats what I get for thinking I guess...
Now things just don't seem right
I feel like I don't have strength to fight
I havent moved an inch from where I was it seems
I hoped I would wake up and this would all just be a dream
But now I dont think at all, I just do
Suddenly, right now, I'm missing you.
I miss the friendship we had. Things just dont feel right anymore. I wish that things could be like they used to be. Please I need to talk to you sometime, Chris.
here's the letter i was talking about in my highfire account:
Mehself,
I am officially in love!
Since meh + dad got into a fight about Chris, or Baby Pink, and dad said that he didn't care about meh, and he wouldn't call meh... (he does + he did!!! so BOOYAH! see how much he knows) it only made meh like him more, even from our "BFF" status. Now we like each other, and Gordon wonders why I cant go out with him. {or rather why were not going out} He's my BFF. I cant do that and ruin our friendship. No way. Or could I? I would picture myself in the future, wondering that if I would have gone with him, what would have happened. Where would I be? Would we still be together? It's something that confuses meh often. I can't help but think of it. Would it seem right if I dated a gothic boy? Would it even LOOK right? I miss him. Help meh choose my destiny. And don't say it's puppy love until I know in my heart it is.
Love,
The Thoughtful Meh.
Distance departs us
Like something unknown-
Threads of love that never crossed
Instead they're tossed and thrown.
Seeing is believing,
As the old saying goes...
But honestly I'm not seeing
Maybe I'm just missing the concept, who knows
Yeah this one is short. i dunno... i just felt like writing something a lil bit sad.
Jeez... my back is killing me. ehh... that is the LAST time i play GTA san andreas for literally the whole day... (IE: when i woke up, i got some dry cereal, picked up the controller, unpaused the game, played it until 6, ate dinner, played the game until 2am. then, restart the process.) well anywho, i got the new Encore cd, by Eminem, and I listened to it. One song I particularly like is Mockingbird. It reminds me of my family. Well, enough talk, here it is:
"Mockingbird"
Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat- don't fuck with dad (haha)