Things are going good, and things are wierd. Since i lost my job at target, I went back to kmart before they closed, and finished up with them. I worked there until the end, watching everything fall apart. and now I drive by the empty building that once was and wish it was still open, wishing that all my friends were so close still.

I went there tonight, at about 10pm, just stood outside the door and looked in, remembering all the good times I had there. Looking at the emptyness of the store that stood proud and open for 35 years, sitting there dead as night. This is harder than it should be? but I guess you wouldn't understand unless it actually happened to you. I guess I am an over dramatic...

On top of that, one of my best friends just turned 21....I don't turn 21 for about a year. So you can imagine my delema. He hasn't said a single thing to me since his birthday, he is to busy getting drunk at bars, while I sit at home wishing I could go with him. All well, more power to him. I hope he is having fun :/ After I helped him move for eight hours for free, we haven't really spoken since. I wish we could hang out, he is so fun to be around. all well...maybe in a few weeks or something.

but not all things are bad! I promise. I am going to school to become a Medical Assistant. I LOVE IT. You have no fucking idea how much this school is doing for me. I learn so muchhhhhhh. Myu teacher is AMAZING. AMAZING. AMAZING. Have you ever had a teacher that just inspires you to go the distance? A teacher who is genuine and cares about your well being. For some it is just a dumb teaching job, but for her it is more than that. She cares about ME and how I am doing. When she calls attendance she always smiles when she calles my name, she is just the sweetest thing. Her teaching skills are super and our class is only 11 people. Which helps me for 1 on 1 time. She askes me about my family and gives me medical advice if I ask for it. If it whren't for her, my little sister would have never went in to the doctor to get looked at. (not going to go there) I LOOK FORWARD to school, I get good grades and I am excelling. Her teaching has alot to do with it....

So right now I am unemployed, getting unemployment while going to school to becoe something real, something that I can advance in, something I will enjoy doing. Honerable? Yes indeedddddie.

I love you all.