"Disappear" "Mommy, mommy where are you? Mommy I am scared, Mommy I can't find you..." I suddenly turn my head outside the window to search the empty country roads for something to focus on other than the childhood memory when I was seven years old. A picture flashed into my head. All I see is red. 'No, no that was eleven years ago, I have to get over it soon,' as I tell myself as my driver turn on the rocky road heading east. It is not my mother's disappearance that was the cause I was still upset, it was how she disappeared. I saw with my own eyes my mother vanishing into thin air, with her eyes filling with terror. 'No I must not think of it,' as I screamed at myself in my mind. I spent the last eleven years trying to think of some way of how my mother disappeared. It would never come out right; I could never find the answer. My old friends at the ward said I was too logical and they tried to convince me that my mother vanished by a magical purpose, but I refused to believe that because I don't believe in anything that is magical. Here I am leaving Jameston Psychiatric Ward after eleven years, eleven long years. I wasn't there because I was insane, the doctors tried to get a clue out of me of what happened to my mother's disappearance, but I didn't tell them anything because I didn't know the answers myself. “We are almost there, Miss Stephan,” informed my driver. “Oh thank you Kinney how is my grandmother again?” I questioned. I don’t remember my grandmother very well because I haven’t seen her since I was about seven. My mother didn’t get along well with my grandmother but I guess my grandmother wasn’t too fond of her either. “Oh, you will know when you will see her, Miss Stephan,” responded Kinney. I continued to look out the window to the country view, everything was green and beautiful, and it surprised me that I didn’t remember when I was seven. Since I didn’t know my father, I was sent to live with my grandmother. Grandmother Stephan, I heard about her from my doctors because she contributed a lot of donations to the ward. My doctors told me that Grandmother Stephan controlled a lot of activities in town and people have great respect for her, my doctors even joked that my grandmother would crack a whip if things didn’t go her way. My doctor told me that I reminded them of my grandmother because my logicalness. ~~~I am not finished...I need suggestions~~~ Brittney