Ah... life. This is so wierd.. on Friday I had a great time at Starbucks and hanging out with Megan and everything, and it was just a fun time and I didnt feel stressed or bad or anything really. Saturday was good too, I had fun shopping in Buckhead in the morning and everything was pretty much relaxed. But then Sunday and today were really crappy, and I feel like I've been hit with all this stuff at once. I had a "long discussion" (big fight) last night, and I've just been having a bunch of friend problems lately. Sometimes I have trouble figuring out who my real friends are. Lately some of them have been acting like they could care less whether they were friends with me or not. Also I lost my north face which had quite a bit of money in the pocket. Well, tonight I found the North Face (I had left it at Starbucks) but it was without the money. Which really bothers me cause I know the people who work at Starbucks took it. And then today I got a lecture on how I treat my dad sometimes, and it made me feel so bad and evil and cruel that I showed up at my babysitting job with a splotchy face from crying. Evidently I'm a lot meaner to people than I realize. I'm really sorry if I've ever been that way to you. Well anyway, Valentines is just sucky for me anyway cause it just reminds me that a lot of other people have boyfriends. And I don't. And it's probably going to stay that way for a while. Aaannd today the coaches all lectured us on how bad our times were last week and how "this is a competitive sport, not a way to get in shape for Spring Break,,," and how some people just aren't made to be runners and such. I'm definitely one of those people he was talking about. I'm just about the slowest on the team, but at least I care about it and I don't just treat it as a way to socialize. But I still feel like the coaches don't want me there and I shouldn't even be there at all. This sucks. But I really shouldn't complain so much. No one wants to read that.