IF you ever read this; I’d like you to go back and read andthestoryis, I’d like you to read every entry and don’t skip a word. Try and remember exactly how you felt as you read the entry. I can’t help this. I don’t know what I want, is it you who I want so badly? How come I’m not happy with him, why is it you that I long for? Why is it you that hurts me so much? Can you answer any of this? I don’t know what I want anymore, I don’t think I really know anything right now. Why does it hurt so much to think of last year? Why does it make me want to die? Why is all of this suddenly making me feel suicidal? Why am I so happy every time I see you smile, yet half dead every time I see you frown? Why is it that I base my life on the next time I see you, is what emotion I’m going to end up being till I see you again? Someone help me Someone fix me All I know is I hurt. I can’t stop thinking about last year. I can’t stop thinking of all the good, and then all the bad. I can’t stop thinking about you, I can’t stop thinking about you You… Why am I hoping just to wake up? 8 months, January = 9 Kill me now.