I have a new outlook on life and I realized that I need to live for myself and not for others and I wouldn't of been able to see this if it weren't for the wonderful perfect amazing girl I know. so, here it goes I know it's going to be better for me I need to be independant instead of using other people like drugs. I feel better even though I just lost a friend I don't know, it's for the better it's good for both of us and I don't know, it probably wont change him but I know it's going to make me a better person. I know I'm going to be better and feel better and that's what everyone needs nobody deserves to feel the way I did depending on someone to make you happy wont make you happy and I'm glad I realized this. and I feel great. this weekend I felt infinate