the end of the school year is here! im really not excited because next year is my last year of high school and i dont think im ready for that... deep breath plus... i FUCKING hate spanish class with everthing that i am... and cant wait to take spanish 4 next year... senora will die... hago que quiero mofo's...

so here i sit oddly in front of my computer at crack of ass a.m. for no reason other than i cannot sleep and randomly thought of my sit diary... i am mildly proud of my meager little diary... for i have not given into the ridiculous mind fuck that is myspace... not entirely sure why but i think that when people start cursing each other out over the internet they lose all meaning to the telling off... and your social life and status really shouldn't be determinded by the number of "friends" on your list [note the fact that i have no friends on my list {and further note its probably just because i suck}] now that im done with my pointless rebellion... prom is coming up which signifies the end of my junior year... which saddens me really but next year ought to be amazing... this year has been really off the wall... LIST! 1. dad and kim split and mom and chris get married 2. quit my first job 3. cut and donated my hair 4. started my now 9 month relationship with my boyfriend 5. got my lisense 6. hurricane katrina 7. live in new york for two months 8. my brother moved for good to montana 9. moved back to new orleans 10. found out about one of my old friends dad going psycho and killing her mom and brother (that was rough) 11. got my current job at the mall 12. lost my virginity 13. bought a new car 14. witnessed my cousin wreck my uncles motorcycle (that sucked to) 15. got wasted mardi gras day 16. my grandma won 8.2 million dollars on a slot machine (nojoke) 17. started my own checking account (thats not crazy but im proud of myself... i have 2 jobs for all this shit) its not all that exciting i guess but i lot of it was pretty damn weird... and so in conclusion... i dont know... go update your own diary or something... and comment :)kthx

i deffinitely about forgot i had this thing... but thats ok... its not like anyone reads it... at least they dont anymore if they did.... any who... i guess... christmas?... was cool i got a nano like the rest of the world... its amazing and i love it... also my car sucks ass... and im getting rid of it as soon as i can buy a new one for myself because my mom is still playing like were poor and cant afford anything... which is bullshit... if she can afford this new 1200 dollar computer im using right now she can at least help me with a newer car... we could have found a car for 1200... she told me i had to wait because we couldnt afford it then she turns around... THE NEXT FUCKING DAY... and shows up with a new computer... that we didnt need... and here i am left with a car that cant keep everything together for longer than a week and im going to die in... amazing... and for all you readin thinking im a spoiled brat who expects to be given a car... get over it... i dont expect shit... im going to pay for my own car... i already have 2 jobs to pay for insurance and gas and anything else i may need... like replacing the breaks twice... once for the break pads the second for the break lines... a broken window thanks to some asshole... 2 new headlights... a dent thanks to some bitch that hit me... 4 tire replacements because i keep picking up nails on the fucking streets from garbage piles of people still cleaning their houses after katrina and last but not least a new windshield thanks to highway driving... this car hates me... i swear... im going to die in it if i dont get rid of it soon... but i can honestly say that i have the worst first car story to tell my kids in all of history...

so yea... winters here... and christmas is coming... i should think of what i want... and make a list on here for all to see... or not... yea... not... i need to find fairly reasonable priced record player to get devin for christmas... and i have to come up with something to tell him to get me... i dont want him to get me jewlery or anything... i know he would... and id feel bad... thats too much to spend on me... haha what kind of girlfriend says "dont spend money on me"? i dont have any friends on my friends list... i never redid it after whoever deleted them all... and now i feel like a loser... and most of my freinds dont update theirs anymore... so... yea comment if i can add you to my friends list... giggity giggity.... alllll right....

so yea... im working in the mall now at the crazy cool gadzooks.. they have some really hot stuff... not so much my style as pac-sun would have been but i dont really have much style... im just an ubercool fashion addict... right -o next paragraph then... i drove to devins house all by myself today... go me... i made him watch rocky horror with me... he didnt realize it was a musical when he agreed to watch it... so yea.. good times quickly followed... hes such a dork... he came and saw me at work yesterday with paul and fish... and all the girls were surprised that i knew them... because they were all punked out with combat boots and their hot skinny jeans... i friggin love their skinny jeans... most of the girls thought paul was a hottie... which he is i guess... but yea they were surprised that devin was my boyfriend... i dont get it but yea... so we were loitering in the mall after it closed (i had closing shift) and playing with a tennis ball and they put their heads in the fountain and sat in santas chair... and snorted my mints... the ones they didnt drop everywhere... >.< asses... yea and they stole one of those stupid kid strollers made to look like cars and they were pushing each other into mail boxes and trash cans and devins truck... amazing... i dont know why i hang out with these kids but i love them...

ocean spray cran-apple juice is amazing and im addicted hardcore yes now that im done with my little advertisement... school has been great and im so glad to be back i really missed everyone... theres alot of people still MIA but word on the street is they'll be back by january or next year... im so glad to be back with my guys... i had to sit with girls at lunch in the school i was at lol... that sounds retarded but i love my guys and girls only bitch when they all get together and i dont bitch much... and dont really care about what other people are bitching over... anyhoo... i had to change a flat tire in the freezing wind in the dark yesterday... i woke up to a flat tire so i had to bring my mom to work and use her car to go to school and such... this car hates me i swear... everytime i go out of town and come back suddenly its like it gets upset or something... theres always something wrong with it that i have to pay for because i was driving it at the time...(not like i abuse my car or am a bad driver its just really old... like older than me old) it never has problems when my stepdad is driving it... fucking figures... but my dad is still suposed to get me a new car... so i guess i dont need to be worried... at least im not walking... right so i guess i should go... so yea...

i am finally back home in new orleans and im fucking stoked... ive missed everyone so much... everything here is so depressing to look at though... theres piles of stuff that was ripped from peoples houses and roads washed out... i went to my friends earlier to see that an enormous tree crushed her dads old van... they didnt use the van anyway and it looked friggin hilarious... as rude as that sounds... yes but anyway... i think im going to go work at the mall... maybe not... i dont friggin know... but yea im going to write something really long tomorrow when im not so tired...

havent updated in forever because i dont have a computer and even this is going to be short because im not supposed to be on this comp but any way things are ok... still waiting for my dad to get me a car and im getting out of here on november 11 and im going home and kicking some ursuline hookkr ass... and i love and miss everyone so much...

well i started school last week and everyone so far has been really nice to me... some of the teachers dont like me... well only one really adn the others are all scandalized about me being fomr new orleans and are careful about what they say around me (not that it matters) but they kinda feel bad and are treating me different than they treat the others.. its kinda anooying but i can use it to my advantage... they're haveing a fundraiser for me... they we're originally going to send the money to a relief charity but since im here they decided to give me and my family the money... which is really nice but i kinda feel bad about it.... i think it should go to the families that really need it... but my mom told me to take it because she doesnt have a job anymore and it'll help my aunt out alot with the stuff she been having to pay for... my dad came home for the weekend and we went to dinner with his (ithink) new girlfriend... im not really sure that they're dating... he said his friend from connecticut... and her lisence plate indeed said connecticut so i guess i'll find out soon enough...? he said hes looking into getting me a car that i can use and perhaps a cell phone... because it looks like i'll be here until christmas if they dont open the schools be october-ish when i get my first report card from school here... otherwise i wait until semester to leave... jennifer called me yesterday and i almost cried... i for serious was starting to think she was dead... devin hunted her down on her cell phone for me and told her where i was and how to get in touch with me... i love devin for that... he gets major points... but i was so glad to hear from jennifer... shes like my sister and i was freaking out because i hadn't heard from her... plus she didnt evacuate.. which meant she could have been one of the 85,000 that drowned... but her calling pretty much made my month... this will probably be the last update for a while so you fans of me (riiiiight) dont get too upset i'll be back but my aunt doesnt have a computer so when i can get to one i'll update and check it out... i love you everyone and thanks everyone that donated to the relief thing the site has going on... it really means alot... ...i love devin and miss him alot.... that punk bastard

whoo... i get to go to school in new york again... its amazing... my brother has been shipped off to live with my grandparents in montana and he'll be going to school there... im going to be staying with my aunt here in new york and will be going to school here... with people i dont know... i have no friends here and i cant get in touch with the ones i do have so this is all horribly depressing... i want to be with devin so badly... i told him that if he finds a girl he really likes to go ahead and date her because i would feel so selfish to make him do the long distance thing... because i have no idea when i'll be back... it could be by october... christmas maybe even sometime in february... i dont know... he told me that im the only one hes concerned about... which is sweet but not practical... when you really care about someone and you cant see them you get frustated and just want to get away... ive done the long distance thing before... it didnt end happily... he told me he wanted my necklace that i always wear so he could wear it (its not girly or anything)... i told him he could have it and hes going to send me his dogtags... its really sweet to... he told me he wanted my necklace because he knows i'll want it back and i'll go looking for him... which is true cheesy but very true and i love him for it... i love that kidd for serious...

katrina has destroyed my nieghborhood and is slowly destroying my city... new orleans is effed... im not sure where all my friends are communications have pretty much been out the whole time and wont be back on for a while... we managed to get to memphis and are mooching off family of my stepdads... we night be here for weeks... my parents are going as soon as they can to check out the damages on our house... if its that bad my brother and i will go live in n.y. with my dad and go to school there so i may become a yankee once again... the funny thing is though i couldnt give a fuck less about all my stuff that ive lost (including my car) im more worried about school and my friends that im not sure about... this is my junior year... i have ACTS and SATS to be taking and i lose my honors classes if i go to ny... i dont know what im going to do... i DO NOT want to start over at a new school AGAIN... and im not going to see devin in forever either... hes in baton rouge and like hell my moms going to let me go see him... i miss him so much already... this sucks so much ass... FUCK YOU KATRINA FOR TURNING MY FUCKING LIFE INTO A FUCKING LAKE!

today was the first day of junior year... it was lovely... one day and already last years drama is starting again... but just like last year i am going to ignore it all and stay out of it... mainly because half the shit is way to trivial for me and the other half doesnt concern me at all... so why get into it? but it is fun to sit behind it all and just laugh... i hadnt been to school for 20 minutes and i was yelled at 3 times by 3 different teachers about 3 different dress code violations... violation #1.) my shirt was untucked... big surprise?! violation #2.) i had writing on my arm and had too many bracelets... again big surprise violation #3.) i was wearing my dead grandmothers old nursing name tag on my uniform shirt... THEY MADE ME TAKE OFF MY DEAD GRANDMAS NAME TAG... its tiny and harly noticeable... so what the big deal was im not sure... ... so im off to a great start... and we have a "diciplinarian" this year... magical... hes the 79 yr. old record keeper... very intimidating let me tell you... he gave his little speech at the assembly this morning and i was laughing through out... is was like being yelled at by a turtle... i love this damn school i swear... even though its so moronic sometimes... i love it...

today was book day... i saw pretty much everyone but only for a minute or so each so the whole thing was pretty gay... i also got my car taken away... my mom HAD to be at book day for some reason (even though she didn't) and told me to meet her there at 11 and i slept too long and showed up at 11:30 and now shes all pissy about it but what ever... ive lost my car for a week which isnt that big of a deal because i have no where important to go and if i go anywhere it will be with devin and he comes to pick me up anyway... i'll let my mom think that this week has sucked but honestly i dont care... and i just realized that my friends list is no longer there... what the hell is up with that?...

bleh my brothers coming home today... honestly i had forgotten about him until the other day when devin asked me when he was coming back... i didnt really miss him... a break from austin is always nice... he cramps my style too much lol... but anyway... no thats all really... so bye?

i finally got use of my car back today and i owe my mom 400 dollars for repairs which i think is pretty much bullshit... chris was the one driving it for 3 months... i had only had it for a week and 1/2... you dont wear out the brakes in a week... no matter how bad you drive... but anyway its back and i can drive again... devin and i went out yesterday we really didnt do anything besides drive around and stop at random places... we went to the mushroom and the mall and played ONE game of air hockey and left... we went to goodwill and andreas for about 5 minutes... then we went behind sav-a-center and i watched him skateboard and we made out for a bit... then drove around some more and made out at red lights all to make it home on time at nine because my mom is a weirdo... not very interesting to read but its all i got...

i went and donated my hair today... they measured it at 18 inches instead of the 16 i measured it at... which really sucks because it was only suposed to be 10 inches... assholes... devin asked me out the other day and i said yes... so now i have a bf with green hair... which makes me laugh... its funny because these little old ladies at the mall look at me then him and back at me like what the hell are you doing with HIM!?... but they'll get over it... we went to the movies yesterday with paul and his gf... and on the way home he cut off a state trooper and got a ticket... of all the people in the world he could have cut off he cuts off a state trooper... ass... anyway the brakes went out in my car and i need about a thousand dollars to fix it... i should just buy a new car for that... its amazing it really is... i've had the car for about 1 week and a 1/2 and already put $1,160 into it... god how i hate it... but its a good thing ive gotten a new job already...im going to work at reginallis and be a hostess... lovely...

i did it... i got my ass length hair cut... and it is way too short... i wanted the minimum 10 inches required for donation off and they cut 16! SO... i hate my hair now... but i DID NOT CRY when they cut it and im over it being to short because i know i did a good thing... i also quit my job yesterday... it wasnt fair what they did to me so i quit before my manager decided to turn the situation on me and try to fire me... not that i cant handle being fired i dont care, but in this situation i was right and they were wrong so i wont be fired when I AM NOT THE ONE SCREWING OFF... they can no longer take me for granted and they'll be kicking themselves in the ass about it... my mom is kinda annoyed that i quit... i told her i wanted to and that i would talk to my manager about it and see what she had to say and i didnt like what she had to say... shes my boss not my mother... shes not there to punish me and shes not going to treat me like im her kid... i was her co-worker that was all the respect i wanted... and all her stupid little tests on me were bullshit... and she knows it now... she didnt think i would ever quit... and i knew she wasnt going to fire me... i had made myslef indespensible... i had worked my ass off there for a year and i was one of the only people who knew everything about every aspect of the buisiness... i was way too valuable to her... as concieted as that sounds... its true and any of my co-workers would tell you the same... my mom ran into my ex-boss at sams club earlier today and she told my mom that if i wanted to go back and talk about it she would give me my job back... GIVE ME my job BACK... as if she took it from me... she needs me... but its too late now im not going back and i've applied for a new job else where... go me! devin comes home tommorow and i missed him oddly enough lol... but im excited to see him and i going to drag him with me and jennifer to go get my hair fixed tommorow...

so yesterday i spent the nite at jennifers house and when i went to get in my car to go home this morning i found that someone had busted my drivers side back seat window... for NO REASON... but it was deffinatly busted in intentionally there was very little glass on the outside of the car and the glass was like blasted to the passengers side and front seat... fucking amazing... what really pisses me off though is that fact that they didn't take anything... my cds and cd player were left... if youre going to break my window at least take something and make it worth while instead of just busting it to be an asshole... that sounds really dumb but thats honestly how i feel... because now i have a broken window thats going to cost me $160 to fix and its broken for no reason... bitches i swear... ive had the car for 3 damn days... why does shit like this happen to me all the time...?!

hey fools... sitting here at gangster ashleys with jennerz and ashley (naturally) yea weve dyed and bleached just about everyones hair today... not mine though... i like my hair as is... we wnet and bought dye for ashley and then she decided she didnt like it so we went back to wal mart with like a huge handful of change and paid for 2 new boxes of bleach... with the change... and now shes a blonde... we're a happy family... we're a happy family... me, mom, and daddy... anyway... we're amazing we really are... look im from the note book... (dont worry about it... really) anyway i've changed my diary and it is now blue with one of the best new bands... the bravery ya dig... as my header picture... they are the best and the lead singer is a hawtie... but anyway i think we're going to walk back to jennifers now and then... get my cds and clothing and money and such...

ryan - ryan he's our man... if he can't do it... don't be surprised... lol jk ryan its hard not to love you! -t0Ri