im really depressed right now that my friend the same friend that i have a crush on is now going out with one of my best friends. and that really bothers me. but im ok. i am head over heels over this one guy named paul and wow i am aslo a little sad that i cant tell him how i feel about cause if i do im afraid that he will turn away from and then what nothing to do with me. but if i keep it all to me self i feel like im ready to explode because i cant tell him. if any one knows how to solve this could you help me with this little delema(i cant spell) here is the poem that i wrote about paul but he will never read it. i want to yell to you and let you know how i feel. i wish to yell i love you all the time. i wish i could be with you day and night. and for us to be together. for us to be one and one alone. as we are one we shall never be apart. oh paul i want to yell to you every time that im on the phone talking to you.but i dont instead i bite my tounge. why wont you say that you love me? when i know you do. im afraid that youll turn away from me if i said it. when is the next time well meet? its only too far away to tell. all i know is its not soon enough. i wish i was there with you lying in your arms or just there while you hold me in your arms. to me it doesnt matter much as long as im there and in your arms. just remember i really and truely do love you. i wrot e that yesturday. but there is one other reason that i am depressed and that is because me last boyfriend that i had dumped me and told me in a letter that he never want ed to talt to me again. and then the next day i find out that my mother is moving to florida and wants nothing to do with me or my brother.