i smoked like 7 cigarettes today. fucking sick. such a fucking lozer. its hard to be strong when no one else is strong with you. and its hard to stay strong when youve got no one to hold you up. you dont know what that is truely. i wish you were the one that fell so i could show you. i donno why i keep coming back randomly talking about us being friends or whatever because i dont want to talk to you. ever. you abandoned me. its not like your here for me. your never going to be here for me. you watched me drown and dont care to find out where ive ended up.