Her disapointment was brought on by nothing more than self important views. In her mind she had been done wrong, she didn't take the time to realize that what she had was more than she asked for, more than she wanted to begin with. Her anger at being ripped off was intense, but her guilt for feeling the way she did was stronger. As she stepped back to look at the big picture, she understood what had gone wrong. The thought of what had occured still brought about frustrated feelings, disapointing memories, all the things that she didn't want to think about, but in the end, she fully came to appreciate the experience. Her own wants were the cause of her pain. Her own desperation for the things she didn't need, only expected, were the cause of the disapointment. You gain nothing you want by expecting an endless flow of things you don't need. The anger towards anything and everything following the day of disapointment was the result of thinking that she deserved what she didn't get. You don't truly deserve anything you think you deserve.