ok so idk.....im so upse right now its not even funny...my mom might send me away b/c ppl told her that i fucked a 21 year old n this other kid....and its not even true......then she told this kid that i realli realli like that he cant talk to me....witch is so not true b/c now she dont care....b/c she said i culd talk toh im but...idk......and idk i feel liek he was only tryin to save his ass....b/c now i might get put in a hospitol b/c of all this shyt....so this is fuckin stupid...and all they did is blame me..and they dont realli even know the truth.....i just wanna fuckin die....i realli do i just wanna die......im tired of this shyt...i cant stand it here...i cant wait till i can go to new jersey and get away from here.....i cant be here....i cant deal with this shyt.....i just cant...i wanna just fuckin die....i feel used..by this kid i liek that he just wanted a piece of ass and now hes actin all meen n shyt......and then i cant fuckin take my mother we fuckin started fightin and now i thing i broke my fist b/c i cant move it b/c i punched a wall untill my knuckles blead....sometimes i just wonder if peaople would be happier if i wasn't here...... maybe they would just be better off without me here....so realli dont care.....i mean if im gonna keep hurting the people around me then i dont wanna be here b/c i dont wanna be here....b/c i warned this kid that i didn't want to screw things up for him...and i dont know if i did....im just ruin things for myself....b/c noone trusts me and everyone hates me...and i cant deal with all this shyt...... i really cant take this....im so sick of this shyt......i just wanna be out of honesdale..b/c i knew this guy would hurt me but i dont think he really cares....but then again i think hes does...well ig ot to go bye