What is wrong with me? I'm letting one of my best friends down. She's always been there for me and I just go around and forget all the things i said i would do. Like after the whole last tuesday bullshit...we go out and chill either wednesday or thursday after 11 pm. And i guess she said something about going shopping and i guess i said i would go but then go on a head and tell teresa i'll watch cabbage patch. And i completely blow off the fact that i 'told' amber i would go. The thing is, is that i honestly do not remember telling ARC i would go with her. And again i let her down. But i called and talked to her sunday and we figured I will have nothing planned Saturday or today. Because we need a chance to hang out and for her to know that i'll be there for her when she needs just like i am for Teresa and Cab'ge patch, when i told them they would be there. I feel soo bad like she can't trust me, cause i gave the reason not to be trustworthy!! Well i suppose I guess this is all for now! And besides the fact that i just can't wait untill i have enough money to save up AND GET MY OWN PLACE CAUSE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN LIVE AT HOME ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! LiFe SuCkS i KnOw so I'm gonna beat it to hell!!!!! Love always and forever!! xShOrTiEx

Well yesterday i got a call from my sister who told me Teresa was trying to get a hold of me and i was supposed to call her as soon as possible. So I did and she was all panicky and told me that Kotias sperm donar called and said he was gonna be there in 9 hours. And she told him he was not allowed over there. So I went over there to be with them and I just COULD not leave them alone. And I noticed that I had bowling that night (am on a bowling league) and had to call and cancel only to notice didn't answer her phone so I then left a message. So then Teresa and I went to Taco Bell it was freakin' Taco Tuesday. So...we got like 8 tacos all together, plus potatos and 2 medium drinks and all that only costs us $7.98.. We were both like FUCK YEAH!!!!!!! So then we went to Wally World and got Cabbage Patch a cute Peach track outfit...She looks so freakin adorable in it! We DID GOOD!!! YAYA So after that we went back to the apartment and decided to put bordering around it. We did an awesome job in the living room even tho it did take us like 2 1/2 hours to do it! Man are we freakin losers? I should stop cussing so much. But then amber showed up and i felt bad cause i let down my team. So she chilled for like a half hour. And left and teresa and i finished the hallway and almost the whole bathroom. Then it was bedtime cause we finally finished at like 12:30am. Well love and butterflies for now..Peaches!!!!! xShOrTiEx

+ Known as: ShOrTiE + Gender: gIrLiE + Age: 18 + Lives in: K-tOwN USA + Birthday: April, 19, 1987 + Shoe size: 9 + Hair color: redish brown + Eye color: greenish - hazel + Style: Casual SECTION 2: HAVE YOU EVER... + Fallen off the bed?: Yeah + Fallen for a relative?: No! EWWWWWWW + Broke someone's heart?: Yeah + Had your heart broken?: Yeah + Had a dream come true?: Yeah + Done something you regret?: Yeah + Cheated on a test?: Ummm…Yes SECTION 3: CURRENTLY... + Wearing?: t-shirt and jeans and cdplayer + Listening to? My WaY LiMp BiZkIt + Reading?: this + Located?: Alternative Education Room + Chatting with?: N.O.O.N.E. + Watching?: Nothing + Should REALLY be doing?: World History SECTION 4: DO YOU... + Brush your teeth?: yeap, e'ry day!! + Have any piercings?: Ears + Drive?: my two feet + Believe in Santa Claus?: only if i get presents outta it!!:D + Drink?: sometimes + Got a cell phone?: I took over the one that belongs at the house + Got a pager?: no + Wear glasses or contacts?: GLASSES I do now DAMNIT SECTION 5: THE LAST PERSON YOU... + IMed?: bud + Talked to on the phone?: AmBeR + Yelled at?: JeSsE SECTION 7: PERSONAL... + What do you want to be when you grow up?: rich in wealth and in love + Best day: BeInG SiNgLe AgAiN + Worst Day: Mondays + Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: crush: on my very first boyfriend, WOW he's very fine these days + Did you lose someone you really loved?: Yes…sadly + Love your family?: Yes + Love your friends?: Everyone of them SECTION 8: FAVORITE... + Movies:Lion king, Losing Isaiah and I can’t think of any others right now + Song: Crossroads by Bone Thugs 'N Harmony, I'll be Missing You - Puff Daddy Ft. Faith Evans + Group: Red Hot Chili Peppers + Store: Wal-Mart and Hottopic and Gordmans + Relative: Cousin on my mom’s side: Justin; dad’s side: Elizabeth, Mikey, Aunt on dad’s side: Aunt Mel; mom’s side: Linda + Sport: Volleyball and Swimming + Ice Cream Flavor: Snickers, chocolate chip cookie dough, and chocolate chunk + Fruit: strawberries, kiwi, apples, oranges...bananers.... + Candy: Twix, and Kit Kat + Day of the Week: Friday and Saturday + Time: 4:20 + Color: blue, black, and silver + Name for a Girl: Ezhuriah Lee, Alixius Nikoal, Aerian Lourdes, Akeylah May, Akasha Rose, Trinity Lourdes, Lailah May, Aizha Rose + Name for a Boy: Isaiah O'Brien/Quentin, Zachariah/Zacharias Sebastian, Thaddeus O'Brien/Mitchell, Adrian Harold, Kaleb Alan, Aidan Keith, Taye Mitchell SECTION 9: DO YOU... + Like to give hugs?: yes + Like to walk in the rain: yes + Prefer black or blue pens?: Black Pens + Like to travel?: yes + Sleep on your side?: only way to do it + Think you're attractive?: BeAuTy Is In ThE eYeS oF tHe BeHoLdEr + Have a goldfish?: no + Ever have the falling dream?: Oh My Funny Goat all the time + Have stuffed animals?: Lots! SECTION 10: THIS OR THAT... + Pierced nose or tongue?: nose + Single or taken?: SiNgLe + MTV or BET?: BET + 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: 7th heaven + Sugar or salt?: sugar + Silver or gold?: silver + Chocolate or flowers?: flowers + Color or Black-and-white photos?: black-and-white + M&M's or Skittles?: m&M’s + Stay up late or sleep in?: stay up late + Hot or cold?: hot + Sun or moon?: moon + Left or Right?: right + 10 Acquaintances or one best friend?: one best friend + Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup + Spring or Autumn?: Spring + Happy or sad?: happy + Wonder or amazement?: wonder + McDonald's or Burger King?: B.K. Lounge + Mexican or Italian food?: Mexicana + Lights on or off?: oFf + Pepsi or Coke?: coke you, You, YOU! Name? ShOrTiE Gender? female Place? K-Town Grade? 12th Colour Hair? redish-brown Colour Eyes? greenish-hazel Ethnicity? caucasion Race? white? Opinions Gays/Lesbians: whatever they want as long as they leave me out of it... Sex: after marriage, but i didn't follow thru with that Virgins: are smart, and free-spirited people, who know what they want Cutters: that's the way some people deal Suicide: it hurts others, not only themself (RiP JeSsIe nov. 9, 2004:( ) Bondes:I don't understand them Punks: hey they live freely, and dont' give a FuCk what anyone thinks!! :D:D Goths: Don't give a fuck what anyone thinks...at least they're who they wanna be George Bush: indifferent Ashlee Simpson: I think she has a good voice but she can't perform all that well...i guess i believe she does have a problem with her voice... What are your FAVOURTIES? Food: can't think about that right now Genre: Music punk, rap, hip hop, r&b, heavy metal, rock Band: I don't just listen to one... Shampoo(random): ThermaSilk, and Pantiene Pro-Vee TV show I don't watch much t.v. Music Station: Hits 106, on t.v. 811, or 822 Country: United States of America Colour: Blue Drink: anything i guess... Lotion: Johnson&Johnson Baby and Curel Do you think somebody in the world is... Having sex?: right now yes Swearing?: YeS Giving Birth?: YeS Cutting themselves?: YeS Commiting Suicide?: Sadly but yes being raped?: sadly buy yes Getting beaten up?: again sadly but yes Crying?: YeS Dying?: YeS Singing?: yEs Writing?: yEs (ME) Watching "The Goonies"?: yes holding a gun?: YeS Throwing up because they think they are fat?: YeS Kissing?: YeS Being dumped?: yEs Doing Weed?: YES where are you people at? HIT ME UP Being Arrested?: YeS Creating another survey?: yes Do you... Have good grades?: they're fair Have bad grades?: not that bad think labels are for soup cans?: not only for that, but in society, everyone HAS A LABEL think the world is gay?: No.. hate life?: sometimes hate this survey?: no not really it makes people think sometimes wish to die?: yes have a boyfriend or girlfriend? NO THANK GOD If you have/had a b/f or g/f this section is for YOU! how far have you gone? all the way Have you kissed? yes Have you done something you regret with them? yes Have you broke their heart? yes do you wish you had them back? NOPE Do you want to marry them? Almost happened thank GOD it didnt' Are You: Punk? sort of ghetto? depends on how u describe ghetto Hippie? no a redneck? NO NO NO Goth? in a sense Tired? yes sleepy? yes Do you like: Kelly Clarkson? yes she has an amazing voice THE USED?: no George Bush? Indifferent singing? YES writing? YES dancing? YES playing? YES tarot? NO Do you mind these kind of people...: Prostitutes? They do what they gotta do to survive cheaters? no i can't stand them!! cutters? that's how they deal, i don't mind them punks? what's wrong or so different about being PUNK?? goths? what's wrong with GOTHS:??? WHAT'S UP WITH ALL THESE LABELS???!!!!!!!!!!!

I confess that in 2005 i... ( ) stayed single the whole year ( ) got your first kiss ( ) kissed someone new ( ) made-out for the first time ( ) made-out in/on a car ( ) kissed in the snow ( ) kissed in the rain ( ) fell in love ( ) fell in love with a fool (x) had your heart broken ( ) broke someone else's heart ( ) had a good relationship with someone ( ) questioned your sexual orientation ( ) came out of the closet ( ) gotten pregnant ( ) gotten someone else pregnant ( ) had an abortion ( ) gotten married ( ) had a divorce ( ) had a gay marriage ( ) kissed someone of the same sex ( ) dated someone you'll never forget (x) done something you've regretted (x) lost your love (x) lost faith in love ( )kissed under miseltoe WORK/SCHOOL ( ) got a promotion ( ) got a pay raise ( ) changed jobs (x) lost your job ( ) quit your job ( ) dated a co-worker ( ) dated your boss ( ) dated your boss' daughter/son (x) got fired from your job ( ) got straight A's ( ) met one teacher you really like (x) met one teacher you really hated (x) found the subject you love (x) failed a class (x) cut class (x) skipped school ( ) got into a fight with a classmate (x) did something you were proud of (x) discovered a new talent ( ) gave the teachers a reason to teach (x) proved yourself an idiot (x) embaressed yourself in front of the class ( ) fell in love with a teacher ( ) got a lead in the school play ( ) made a varsity team ( ) made junior varsity team (x) were involved in something you'll never forget ( ) got sent to the office OTHER (x) painted a picture (x) wrote a poem ( ) ran a mile (x) listened to music you couldn't stand (x) double-dipped (x) skinny-dipped (x) went to a sleepover ( ) went to camp ( ) threw a surprise party(had) (x)laughed till you cried (x) laughed till you peed in your pants (x) flirted shamelessly ( ) visited a foreign country (x) visted a foreign state (x) cooked a disasterous meal (x) lost something important to you (x) got a gift you adore (x) realized something new about urself (x) went on a diet ( ) tried to gain weight (x) dyed your hair (x) came close to losing your life ( ) someone close to you died... (x) went to a party (x) drank alchohol (x) drank alchohol underage (x) tried drug(s) (x) got drunk ( ) got arrested (x) read a great book (x) saw a great movie (x) saw movie so scary that it made you cry ( ) saw one of your favorite band/artist live ( ) saw someone famous in person (x) did something you want to tell everyone so that about sums up my sucky year here's the start to my hopefully good year 1. Who was the first person u talked to in 06? Amber 2. The first person you hugged? my mom 3. The first person you called? robbie 4. The first person you texted? (emailed)Teresa 5. The first alcoholic drink you drank? nothing 6. The first thing you drank? Mountain Dew 7. The first person that called you? Amber 8. The first person that texted you? (emailed) don't remember 9. Who was the 1st person to hang up on you? no one 10. What was the first thing you watched on TV? Fresh Prince of Bel-Air 11. Who was the first person you thought of? robbie 12. What was the first thing you ate? eggs 13. What were you wearing at midnight? shirt with jeans. 14. What was the first drastic thing you did? broke up with robbie the first thing that morning like at 3am.

Well, we're moving into a tiny ass apartment today after school. I have to share a room with my little sister. And NO ONE is allowed over after 10:30 on weekdays and 12:30 weekends which sucks and you have to call to let the landlady know if someone's going to spend the night in advance. It sucks. Today's katies birthday. I don't really care. She's such a loser after she slept with my ex. I'm sorry but friends just don't do that...DO YOU KNOW HOW WRONG IT IS? I sure do! But screw it. It's done and over with...WITH THE BOTH OF THEM. My ex still tells me he loves me. I don't love him. After what they did, together or not together. No guy like that is worth having! I still talk to him, even tho he annoys me. I'm thinking I'm just gonna stop talking to him all together. It's not like we're ever going to see eachother. Maybe i should ask my bud about it? I don't know My bowling average went up this week. Now instead of having a bowling average of 73 I have an average of 93 and for me that is soooo great. I love bowling. I'm on a bowling league with my friend and her grandma. THEY are both good! They try giving me tips when i suck but they don't help. And every Tuesday after that, we go have breakfast at Perkins. You know what's pathetic? I already picked out names for my kids and other names i like. Just in case the sperm donor doesn't like the ones i have but HE can just suck it up. You know I would love to be a Black Widow!!! HehE Okay: Girls 1. Ezhuriah Lee (Riah Lee for short) 2. Alixius Nikoal 3. Aerian Lourdes (Aerian=airy in french and Lourdes is the name of the holy place were the Virgin Mary miraciously heals people, therefore i figure it's just like the holy place in heaven...even simplier put Heaven =D i'm dork i know) 4. Akeylah May 5. Trinity Lourdes? 6. Akasha Rose 7. Lailah May 8. Aizha Rose 9. Jadyn Nikoal 10. Lily May (HeHe doubt that one:D) Boys 1. Isaiah O'Brien/Quinten 2. Zachariah/Zacharias Sebastian 3. Thaddeus Quienten/Mitchell 4. Adrian Harold 5. Kaleb Alan 6. Aidan Keith 7. Taye Mitchell 8. Zaidyn O'Brien 9. Derrick/Derick/Derek Kieth 10. Akacious Quinten 11. Alex/Xander Keith I don't know I liked them! If you have any other suggestions or anything let me know! Well I suppose that's all for now. Loveya Always and forever xShOrTiEx

Well I'm just sitting here in my Business Systems class. Just got done with a test about computer actions and shit like that...so that was SOOO much funn...yeah right hehe...I'm bored outta my wits! I filled out a card for my highschool diploma...I cant believe I'll be graduating...I never thought it would be here in Kearney either. And that sucks! I'm glad to be outta Shelton, but I'm not glad that I'm graduating with a class I don't know...It sucks ass! I miss all the people I know, okay, well some of them... I can't believe I broke up with my boyfriend, on the 1st of the year...But i need something different. I need a guy who can support and take of me. I'm almost out on my own. I'll 19 and still livin' with mommy, I don't wanna live with my mom anymore! It's bullshit...I'm tired of being bossed around! I want a new life! I'm almost there, I just need this one job pleease give it to me I'm desperate, but not desperate enough to work fast food again. That was not cool! I'm tired of hearing my mom talk to my uncle. My uncle as in my DAD'S brother..Not her own. But still, she's already slept with him... I mean her and my dad have been separated for 14 years now, but that's STILL my uncle! Kinda her brother-in-law, almost her brother! It's disgusting! She doesn't think she can live without a man...LOOK AT ME I CAN DO IT, MOTHER! But who cares. I'm just blabbling on and on... Love and Butterflies ~*~*You can give the donkey a happy ending....but the miserable beginning remains forever.*~*~ xShOrTiEx

As I sit here and think about the days that pass me by I realize there is not yet one day that I have had pass by me here. It’s a whole new experience it’s a whole new ball field. It scares me half to death; Will I be accepted? Will I be pushed around? Is it safe to live the way I have my whole life? I’m not sure I fell through the cracks I feel the flame of their eyes burn into my flesh. I am an outsider… Do they like outsiders? Yeah, some seem okay. But there are others who think I shouldn’t be here. They’re worried. About what? What can I do to them? What have I done? What will I do? I haven’t and won’t do anything but let the last semester of my senior year fall into place, while I seep back and watch them cower away! I want to make a name for myself Other than the girl who came here half way through her senior year. I finally found out how to work this eMac pc....geeze! :D Love always ~*~*You can give the donkey a happy ending....but the miserable beginning remains forever.*~*~ xShOrTiEx

Hey! I haven't wrote much on here...oh well i guess. One of my best friends is pregnant again! Love ya hun! She can do it...with her "true" friends around...we can conquer all! Wish i had everything to give. I might be working at the hospital! I hope anyway. 7.14/hr...heck ya! Just being a housekeeper! I can live with that! :D Well i suppose i'm gonna tip the rose and bring this letter to a close (in ambers words) ~*~*You can give the donkey a happy ending....but the miserable beginning remains forever.*~*~ xShOrTiEx

Well I just realized how much i miss my baby brother! I haven't seen him for 4 years. He should be about 8 I think? I'm not all that sure. I have a baby sister, that i haven't seen at all, and i guess she's about 4 years old. They're going thru foster care cause their mom was a real bad druggie! And my dad...well he's just a dead beat! I swear one day tho i'm gonna find them and take them far away! And we'll all be happy once again. Like we were 4 years ago. I took my lil' bubbagum with me all the time, so he didn't have to stay home with his mom. She even tried to give him a smoke of m.j. one day and i walk in at the exact right time, and i took bubbagum and me to the park, and we spent hours there. I love him so much... I hope he doesn't think i abandoned him! ~*~*You can give the donkey a happy ending....but the miserable beginning remains forever.*~*~

Well, i haven't been on here for awhile. I'm a senior in school, and it's great. I just can't wait to be out! The first quarter's almost up already! I'm staying with my friend and her folks cause my mom and stepdad don't want me around and he's a prick and mom said if i wanted it to stop then I'd have to move so i did yesterday, and it's gonna be wierd cause she's working after school till 11 at night along with her dad, so it'll just be me, her mom, and lil' bro. Shortie xXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXxXx "Spelling isn't everything. There are days when spelling Tuesday simply doesn't count." -Rabbit "Those who are clever, who have brain never understand anything." "Brains first and then hard work." -Eeyore "People who don't think probably don't have brains; rather, they have grey fluff that's blown into their heads by mistake." "To the uneducated, an A is just three sticks." "You can't help respecting anybody who can spell Tuesday, even if he doesn't spell it right." -Rabbit They all went off to discover the Pole, Owl and Piglet and Rabbit and All; It's a thing you Discover, as I've been told By Owl and Piglet and Rabbit and all. - from 'Expotition to the North Pole' Sometimes, when you are a Bear of Very Little Brain, and you Think of Things, you find sometimes that a Thing which seemed very Thingish inside you is quite different when it gets out into the open and has other people looking at it. "So they went of together. But wherever they go, and whatever happens to them on the way, in that enchanted place on the top of the forest, a little boy and his Bear will always be playing." - The House At Pooh Corner " Pooh," said Rabbit kindly, " You haven't any brain." " I know," said Pooh humbly. - Winnie-the-Pooh "Christopher Robin came down the bridge feeling all sunny and careless, and just as if twice nineteen didn't matter a bit, as it didn't on such a happy afternoon." -A.A. Milne Winnie-the-Pooh

"A mostly sunny day, to some, can look a lot like partly gray." from "Lessons from the Hundred-Acre Wood" by Hallie Marshall -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It Was There...Now It's Gone You think you can Depend on tails. You don't expect tails To go wrong. The last time I looked It was right there. Now when I look there, It's gone. It was always Just behind me, Always tagging along. A little something at the back... I thought it was there, And it's gone. I assumed it was Attached to me, That it actually Hung true. I'd hoped it was stuck Very firmly on. Maybe we needed Some glue. It used to trail Right behind me, Always tailing along. My little extra At the back... I thought it was there, Now it's gone. from "Lessons from the Hundred-Acre Wood" by Hallie Marshall -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about. from "The Pooh Book of Quotations" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "When stuck in the river, it is best to dive and swim to the bank yourself before someone drops a large stone on your chest in an attempt to hoosh you there." Eeyore from "Eeyore's gloomy Little Instruction Book" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "No Give and Take. No Exchange of Thought. It gets you nowhere, particularly if the other person's tail is only just in sight for the second half of the conversation." Eeyore from "The House at Pooh Corner" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "After all, what are birthdays? Here today and gone tomorrow." Eeyore from "The House at Pooh Corner" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "Sitting on thistles doesn't do them any Good. Take all the Life out of them." Eeyore from "Eeyore's gloomy Little Instruction Book" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "Why, what's the matter?" "Nothing Pooh Bear, nothing. We can't all, and some of us don't. That's all there is to it" "Can't all what?" said Pooh, rubbing his nose. "Gaiety. Song-and-dance. Here we go round the mulberry bush." "Oh!" said Pooh. He thought for a long time, and then asked, "What mulberry bush is that?" "Bon-hommy," went on Eeyore gloomily. "French word for meaning bonhommy," he explained. "I'm not complaining, but There It Is." Eeyore and Pooh from "Winnie-the-Pooh" by A. A. Milne -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "I don't hold with all the washing," grumbled Eeyore. "This modern Behind-the-ears nonsense." Eeyore and Pooh from "Winnie-the-Pooh" by A. A. Milne

Eeyore's Second Law of Motion: A falling Pooh Bear will land on a gorse bush......but a falling Tigger will land on an Eeyore. A True Friend....will desert you in your time of need. Even if you think you have nothing worth stealing...someone will come along and take your tail. The Wrong Answers are the ones you go looking for when the roght answer is staring you in the face. You can give the donkey a happy ending....but the miserable beginning remains forever. Disparage Success: But Eeyore was saying to himself: "This writing business. Pencils and what-not. Over-rated, if you ask me. Silly stuff. Nothing in it". Make Depression Your Friend: "I might have known", said Eeyore. "After all, one can't complain. I have my friends. Somebody spoke to me only yesterday. And was it last week or the week before that Rabbit bumped into me and said 'Bother!' The Social Round. Always something going on. Gaze on Greyness: Cultivate a permanently tragic expression by staring at your reflection for hours on end; it's sure to bring atouch of gloom to even the sunniest of days. Lose Your Friendships: Avoid unexpected guests "dropping in" by placing your door knocker just out of reach. Expect the Worse: Even if somebody remembers to come to your birthday party, they will almost certainly... eat your present on the way.... or break it! Write Down Your Worries: And then depress your companions by reading them out loud. Enjoy Boredom: It's all you've got to look forward to. Double Whammy: No matter how bad things seem...nothing could be worse than being used as a towel rail http://www.geocities.com/eeyorelass/