What is wrong with me? I'm letting one of my best friends down. She's always been there for me and I just go around and forget all the things i said i would do. Like after the whole last tuesday bullshit...we go out and chill either wednesday or thursday after 11 pm. And i guess she said something about going shopping and i guess i said i would go but then go on a head and tell teresa i'll watch cabbage patch. And i completely blow off the fact that i 'told' amber i would go. The thing is, is that i honestly do not remember telling ARC i would go with her. And again i let her down. But i called and talked to her sunday and we figured I will have nothing planned Saturday or today. Because we need a chance to hang out and for her to know that i'll be there for her when she needs just like i am for Teresa and Cab'ge patch, when i told them they would be there. I feel soo bad like she can't trust me, cause i gave the reason not to be trustworthy!! Well i suppose I guess this is all for now! And besides the fact that i just can't wait untill i have enough money to save up AND GET MY OWN PLACE CAUSE THERE'S NO WAY I CAN LIVE AT HOME ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! LiFe SuCkS i KnOw so I'm gonna beat it to hell!!!!! Love always and forever!! xShOrTiEx