is there no way to turn off my aching pains within my stomach within my brain within my chest my heart is crying it will not stop it cannot stop i need closure there is no way that we will be together again hes ruining every fucking chance he ever had... and somehow i know there will be that extra chance i fucking love him.. why cant i stop?! why cant he just be honest tell me hes fooling around with another chick an old FLAME BE HONEST its not that tough its too much of a coincidental incident.. too much... i cant take it anymore cant take the crying the breakdowns the mood changes the PAIN the SUFFERING the LOSS what the fucking hell am i to do?! is there no way to stop my pain i just want it to stop i want him back OR i want him to at least come clean...for me savvy?