ive just realized my confidence level goes up when i go to things with big crowds its wierd i know but true my chances are low to have my heart hurt maybe thats why but im tired of just flirting i want to find someone i want to feel loved ive only felt that once and its been so long i sometimes think of ways to get him back but its impossible he had a bump in the road i was the shoulder to lean on i felt special he talks to me more now at least but im glad he's happy he doesnt know how unhappy he made me or how happy he could make me now