hmm well the other night was eventful and lame i must admit! well of course there's nothing to do in Casitas Springs and i'm all sad and lonley so you do stupid stuff when ur like that... neways trista and me hung out and eric called her up so we said she would hang out with him. then we kicked at my house till he came to the store. we went down and kicked it there, then trevor mobed up and then we were kicken it and just talking and shit. he gave trista and me some zan-x and then yeah i went home trista did her slutty thing and then came over to my house again. but the sad thing was is that i took the pill cuz i thought it would take my mind off of joe and yeah that didn't happen. god i'm such a loser i need a life or a bf idk. which ever comes first. but yeah i just ended up thinking about him the whole night and kept wondering what i get out of our friendship. then when i bolied it all down i realized i don't really get anything. he gets the most out of it and that's whenever he wants it. like when he wants to hang out i make it happen, but if i wanna hang out we rarely get to. so idk, i wanna move on but i can't. i just want to let him go cuz i know he';s let me go by now. but there's something that sparks inside everytime i think of him. i know how corny that sounds but it's true. he doesn't even half of what he does to me. well i need to shut up and i have to get off cuz trista wants to have a bon fire in my back yard. so i gotta go set that up. have a nice night