megan has been in pittsburgh since saturday. i?ve been casually updating march with tidbits out of my ?travel journal? (napkins). feel free to scroll backwards in my timeline

1979 ?????????????----- now
* you are somewhere near nowhere near here.


and read them at your leisure. i?ve also been extremely lazy and sweaty this weekend. it?s amazing how once the element of girl is taken away, everything becomes so... lumberjacky. and i never really bothered to notice how unlazy and unsweaty (at times) i have become until megan was not immediately present (physically) ? and now i feel handicapped by this knowledge. woman make man cleaner? woman make man unlazier? woman make man smartier? now that the intimate immediate essence of her has been lifted (momentarily. i fly out to join her there on friday), it is like all of those miraculous little touches she created to mold me into something other than a grunting, humping, slobbering pile of sweaty flesh are quietly placed on stand-by. can i not function as a normal human being without the constant need to impress and please a woman driving me? i am dog. may i lick your feet and nuzzle your crotch? i must be. this is slightly exciting and moderately depressing.