well since I have nobody to talk to about my stupid problems, I am going to vent in here. I can't talk to my boyfriend about anything cause he's an idiot and gets upset with any of my insecurities or just anything involving him in general. -my boyfriend moved in with me, I didn't do it for pitty, I love him but he seems to be getting bored of me, and he basically stated it and/or is hiding it. even as bad as he did treat me previously, I still took him in, and I love him. -I think my whole perspective on my relationship has changed, I don't know. -school is fucking pointless, my school is nothing but a joke. Hey, atleast I am senior. -my friends are idiots, and seem to be wasting my time out here. -my car is a piece of shit, I want to sell it, my parents expect me to drive it with VERY little AC working.. it's ARIZONA, you idiots. -Something new happens to me every week..... -my parents think I'm going to drop out. -HONESTLY THE LAST 4 MONTHS HAVE SUCKED DICK. I can HONESTLY SAY they have BEEN THE MOST MISERABLE months of my life, now that I think about it. I had some good times, but mainly BAD. I don't even know why I put myself through so much, ahhhhhhhh. I want to move...... or turn back time to 4 years ago. Now that I sat here and read my entries from march and back to december... it seems to be I was happier. now I just feel the oh so cliche word "apathetic", sort of emotionless but than again not really. I'm just fucking confused/tired/fed up/want out. I don't know..... everything is coming to me so fast... it's like I don't even know who I am, as cliche as that sounds. And, it sucks. So much is being expected out of me. I don't care if he reads this either. why can't I find somebody who won't waste my time? why even bother looking for that friend or who ever in general? nobody is geniune anymore.