Hey... I dont know which way to turn anymore. My entire life has me so confused, i lost all of my directions. I'm tired of thinking about everything and im tired of crying about everything. I dont know about anything anymore. Ya know, it feels like a huge dream...flying above the clouds, ears ringing of harmonic music, smiles glowing in the sun, and eyes twinkling in the starlight, but all of a sudden, the stars fall and the sun disappears, and ur left in nothing. Absolutely nothing. Ya know... i just wish there was some way to change my past and predict the future. To just untie this knot i have in my life would be the most incredible thing that ever happened to me. ya know what, wishes for a christmas this year are very diferent than any other year. I just don't want anyone to hurt anymore. Sherri --"Don't fall for a fake love...jump to the stars and hold on to what you have." --"So anyone who really had a heart would take me in his arms and love me too. You couldn't really have a heart & hurt me like you've hurt me..." --"I suppose those that always seem so innocent are never really that innocent." --"When you're left alone with nothing to hold on to, you lose everything. You're alone, thinking of every laugh you giggled and every tear you shed. Every pain and every moment of your life. When the flash of life passes you by, you open your eyes and realize how fast you lost it. How fast someone or something came into your life and slipped through your fingers. Each tear that falls from your eye is each painful memory in your heart. Once again, you realize your eyes are closed, so in opening them once more, you see everything. Through each lie, through each truth, through the love and through the hate... You see yourself and you realize you lost yourself too." --"Sometimes we cry to figure out who we are...what we are...who we really are on the inside. When we close our eyes to see ourselves and try to forget about the words we hear and the pain we se. Close our eyes and get away from the real world where you're told you're nothing. The real world where you turn your head and walk away from the brick wall infront of you, knowing that you're nothing. Where we cry to be ourselves and we laugh for a disguise. But when your eyes are closed, you are who you are...and you're WHAT you are...nothing LESS. But when you open your crying eyes, you realize it was nothing but a mere dream...nothing MORE." --Dear Dad..."Tossing at night, and turning in dreams. Like a milky star-sky, it's not what it seems. I hopelessly wonder why I wait for you. When breaking my heart is all you do.